congratulation and jubilation ...nananannnannannannaa...

dearest en. blog...
i have been catching up with a friend of mine whom just got married last not more than 2 months ago, and saje2 je tanye if she has already get herself "double" now...and the answers, even though it is not confirmed by any medical pratitioner just yet..most probably positive..i really hope that it is true... both of them, i'm sure they are anxiously excited to become father-to-be and mother-to-be....kann???kan???? kan father-to-be kan??kannnnn???(you know who you are...hehe..jgn senyum2 kambing je...)

so, another friend of mine yg dah pregnant is Manj... thanks for letting us know the good news as soon as u find out....i'm very happy for both you and along ...send my regards to him ekkk...

owh, as for my hantaran, both mak and i have agreed to just leave it to the kedai bunga/barang hantaran to settle it next time we have to do it...susah kalo masing2 tangan kayu nih....nnt wat malu je ...org bagi cantik2,kite punye mcm haram kan...??

to my blog readers, i really need your opinion on the theme for my wedding next year (hopefully)...it is because while i search for my tudung and selendang for the engagement, i discovered a store that sells beautiful lace (suitable for wedding dress) at a very reasonable price. I already asked en. bf about it but, the thing that makes me more confused is when he said " ikut awak laa...awak pilih laa..." grrrrr.....rase nak geget je makhluk nih...kang org pilih kaler pink tau plak tanak.... owh... about the store i mentioned... the choice of laces there enough to make me rambang mate bagai nak gila...i mean, even if i jalan2 kat jakel ke, euromoda ke, alinas ke and what not, sometime found that eventhough the price of the lace in like very pricy (sometime up to RM 200 per METER)and it is not that beautiful actually... i have no idea what makes it soooooo mahal...in this store yg i just found out, most of the laces are beautiful....and the price is only RM 60 per METER and very beautiful...there is no need to tambah more labuci ke ape ke....it is already cantik lip lap lip lap....glamour i tell you.... so, now i would like to ask for your opinion, kaler ape yg korang rase cantik...??? i got so confused....
owh, and i forgot to tell you one thing....i bought a selendang..not really a selendang..(macam veil pun ade gak...) from that same shop, that is full with lip lap lip lap.....for only RM 45 only..i have surveyed for the same thing in shah alam...a simpler selendang with nothing much on it would cost me RM 105, and the less it could go is RM 95... And the veil that i bought was at first RM 60, and i try to make it less to RM 50...then come the treasurer (of kosh be gosh my mothe laa kan..) she could bargain it to RM 45... i was happy enough that i could get as cheap as RM 50 because in Shah Alam, it was RM 105... ( half price already or what....!!!).. salute to the treasurer laa kan..tabik spring...

enough of that...i am sleepy and i think i want to go to sleep now....
till then, take care y'all...

2 weeks away ...

to my dearest en. blog,
i am two weeks away from the event and i'm struggling to bring out my artistic touch for the dulang hantaran... alangkah indahnye jika ade miss g4 and manj around to help me out with this whole thing... yer kawan2...selama ni hantaran2 utk abg2 saye dan kakak2 saye kawen were under the responsibility of my 3rd sibling, whom now is in College Station, Texas.. utk pengetahuan semua, hanye tangan die je yg lembut dan creative dari kitorang sume...tangan gue?? hehehe...mcm haram...tangan kayu....

oh ye...perlu diberitau di sini..yang mengerje kan bende nih stakat ni ialah saye dan mak saye...saye rase tgn mak saye pon keras cam saye...dan saye pon tatau mane akak saye tu dapat talent tangan lembut sket.... musykil nih!!

setelah lebih kurang mengadap bende ntah hape2 nih dari pagi tadi, kami telah berjaya menggubah 2 barang,dan terase seperti kunun cam terer...tapi hehehe...segan nak tunjuk kat sini, nnt jipak tgk die misti gelak kan... hehehe..nnt laa dah siap sume gue letak laa... kalo tak nnt tak SEPRAISSSSS!!!!! kannn???

ok lah, mak saye telah berbuih mulut memanggil saye utk makan nasik...so, saye pon lapa ni..tak brekfes lagi....bau goreng telur ni sungguh menggoda jiwa saye ...till then.... saye gi makan dulu... nanti saye sambung lagi ye!!

OMG!! i've been tagged

hahaha...baru je stalking adib..igtkan die tak tau..rupe2nye tau laa pulak...tak semena2 je lepas die buang mase dgn survey tuh, terdapat satu ayat "ps: Peed sile buat..."
so, without further a due, here goes....

1.If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
last time i was frustrated...now, i guess i could just be cooolllll...

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
I wanted to have the purrfect life.....

3.Whose butt would you like to kick?
right at this moment, en.bf

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
I'd buy mansions, hybrid car, and make some investment...with the dividend that i'd get, i'll go travelling around the globe.

5. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend??
hmmmm??

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
haha...i'd go for the second one...but with some amendment, being loved by EVERYONE...(tamak kasih sayang sket)

7. Are you gorgeous?
absolutely gorjes....hahaha(perasan laa plak kan)

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
tiru cam adib....(still secretly like that person, who cares its not that im going to tell people , i like them)

9. What do you pray each day for your loved one?
may they live happily everafter here and hereafter, amin.

10. What takes you down the fastest?
some unthoughtful words...

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
most probably i'll put on more weight...and still be happy about it

12. What do you really want at the moment of responding to this tag?
sleep and talk to en. bf(eventhough i just feeling like kicking his butt)

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
sengal ...mahap ye adib..(tapi baik atii...)

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
still lazing on the bed for like another 30 minutes

16. What’s the character must have in your partner?
is???not are??? ade banyakkkkk...

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
tak tau....most probably someone else other than the two fellas

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
forgive= yes, forget= that depends on how big is the mistake...kalo takat curik pemadam pensel, abaikan je laa...

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
being complicated

20. Would you leave your family behind just to chase your dreams?
ntah...i dont think so, i think i'm nobody without them...


ok...now i wanted to tag....
1.suria
2. yda
3. sumer orang yg bace...hahhaha

daaa...nak tido....

a year older? definitely no......

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This entry is meant to record the date in my blog....
Happy 15th Birthday to me....
Happy Anniversary to both my mother n my father...

another year is passing by...but my age remains the same....
i love being 15....hehheheh

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ps: this entry was supposedly published on 11/11/2008, 11:11 a.m.
but unfortunately, i realized that my blog's time zone was GMT -800 (pacific time) ...the moment i realized that, the date was already passed by... DAMN!!!

btw: i'd like to thank these people who have wished me today... thanks for being such a thoughtful person(s)..love u guys for that...

waida, kaklong, alams, saksik, kude, nor, kakngah, zara, hanan, umar,husna, hasan, husin, g4,lyd, cik siti norazim, darlie, suzen, shi2, didot, ika, and not forgotten, my beloved en.bf thanks for the treats yesterday... i love you very much..muah2...owh, i love him.....angau2 plak dah...hehehhe

Monsoon Cup!!!

yer kawan2, i am well aware that the topic is not really the topic for this particular entry. In the previous entry, I was moody and in this entry, I AM EXTREMELY HAPPYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAYYYYYY!!!!

Want to know what makes me this happy???? My assignments are finally DONE!!! at last... I am looking forward times like this every semester... i know you understand the relief that i am feeling right now... that means i can now really mengular...OH NO!! I am excited to start doing the preparation ... YEAYYY!!!

Tomorrow, i'll be sending these two assignments that have made my life hell on earth 3 days ago(oh well dear friends, we are all the ultimate procrastinator, aren't we??>> and g4, thanks for the quotes from ellen degeneres on your blog and also for your philosophy, i truly appreciate it!!)...and now I'm free... And what's more??? I'm not going to have to think and worrying about any assignments anymore on my birthday on tuesday... YEAYYY!!!

I dont care about the contents of my assignments hahaha...all i did was blasah aje..asal siap...yang penting i happy giler nih...baru laa bleh tido dgn aman sekali!!! YEAYYYY!!!

Sumer paragraph pun ade YEAYYYYY!!! YEAYYY!!!!

OWH I AM SO HAPPY!!!!YEAYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And i think i will listen to Frank Sinatra after this posting this entry.....
did i mention i like the part that says

" Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way."

Yeay!!!

Reflection....

i dont know where to start from but this entry will be more about my disappointment towards myself..

many of my friends might have notice that i have high level of anxiety attack (since forever).. i think it wa obviously seen especially when i had to give presentation in front of other people ( i.e. during my micro/macro teaching in the undergrad's years.. if you still remember the moment that i have to do microteaching for MTW class...that was truly embarassing..) My lesson plans would be really beautiful in terms of the flow of the lessons, however, i usually failed when i have to present it to the class.. Some of you might have notice, and the rest may not...

And due to the above matter, it affects my fluency and language use during the interview or presentations.. I dont know how to rectify that weaknesses of mine. During the interview, my grammar went all over the place, me myself notice that BUT... i cannot constantly correcting myself and it would be really awkward... Also, due to the problems, i dont think i have sufficient self confidence whenever i have to attend any interviews.. even thoufgh i have experienced it before, the moment i stepped into the room, only God knows how nervous I'd be ... To tell you the truth of how bad my anxiety level are, the day i attended that Mara interview, i could not sleep at all the night before... my heart was pumping too fast like it was about to blow up any minute, with no familiar faces around me during the interview, unlike the previous interview i had last semester, at least there were ceda and ira...

One of my friends said that i was the only one who is thinking the way i'm thinking right now... but how can i be sure about that?? Or she just didnt want to hurt my feelings and said all the nice things about me in front of me, and keeping me live in denial?? i dont know....she might be honest and she might be not...( for the statement only...deep down, i believe that she is an honest person)

So now the main question is, am i qualified to hold the degree i'm holding right now??? I am so damn afraid to answer that question...

wish me luck!

today i'm gonna have 1 DG41's interview and the day after tomorrow i'll be having another DH41 interview...
now already 4.34 in the morning and i still couldnt sleep...sheeshhhh....

wish me luck ok!! muahhh!!