Argghh!! i'm down with flu...

yerp.. for the past few days (since sunday to be exact), saye demam... at first, i thought it was just another fever, then came the flu in the combo the next day. However, being a very hardworking person, i still went to school on monday and tuesday.. On wednesday morning, i just couldnt open my eyes, my head was too heavy and my body was aching very badly.. so, i decided not to go to work on that morning...

En. awak promised me to come back at 10 a.m, to drive me to see the doctor before he songlaped my en.maxis berukband... after he was off to work, went upstairs to continue sleeping. at about 945 am i woke up, and the headache was still there... around 10 am en. awak arrived, and take me to the clinic at Sg buaya...jauh jugak rupenye sg buaye tu dgn bkt sentosa...the doctor we went to see was the sister to en. awak's classmate in Jasin... rupe2nye, she was expecting us to come, psl adik die dah talipon...isk isk isk.... So, this is just the gist to my convesation eith the doctor....

Doctor : So afidah, ape yang sakit??
Me : owh, demam.. lepas tu badan sakit2 ...
Doctor: ade selesema?
Me : Ade...tp tak laa teruk sgt..ade laa bersin2 sket tapi takde laaa sampai hidung tersumbat terus....
Doctor: Hmmm..... last period bila nih ???
Me : (apekahh??ape kaitan dengan demam nih??) hmmm..awal bulan aritu...
Doctor : Bile tarikh kawen aritu???
Me : (apakah???) 13 june
Doctor : Kene buat pregnancy test dulu nih... baru boleh saye determine ubat ape nak bagi...
Me : (aramakkkk....) **blushing**

Maka, dengan itu terpakse laa saye buat pregnancy test tersebut....dan negative yer kawan2... tetapi masih juga doctor tu kate..hmm, still ade possibility utk ada sbb mungkin takleh detect sbb awal lagi.... btw, tq doctor for giving me MC that day.. (talking abt MC , i need to go to the office and give the MC )

tapi, saye rase laa kan, now is still not a good time for me to have that little creature, because i am still in the phase of adapting and adjusting myself to the new life, new routine etc... There are still a lot to be altered and compromised.

After seeing the doctor, en. awak brought me to a foodstall which he claimed selling " the best sup tulang in the world" .. but to me, sup tu biase laa...sedap laa dari yang biase2..tapi tahap2 kedai sup utara kat s alam tak lebih dari itu... after he sent me home, he taught me how to play his PS2.. psl die takut saye mati kebosanan.... tapi game die adalah sangat tak menarik...kerana main gitar punye game....so, saye adlh sangat tak berminat...

lepas die dah pegi keje balik, i thought of having more sleep for i had to swallowed 3 pills..i felt really tired.. but then, i dont know what got into me, i magically started to clean the house... al maklum laaa rumah orang bujang dulunye...i did the laundry (bercinta btol nk buat dgn mesin basuh nih...tp apekan daye, kang takde baju...), mopped the floor... susun balik sampah2 yang ade that belongs to en.awak (sebab i didnt know which one is important and which one is not) ... If u asked me, i see most of it as sampah je...because they dont look that important to me, because they were stuffed into a plastic bag mcm sampah....mopped tu byk kali tau..ade laa dlm 2 -3 kali jgk..psl the place was like urghhhh...i dont know how to describe... we havent cooked a single meal in the kitchen yet... lps tu, lipat kain... lepas tu jemur kain, lepas tu ubah kedudukan washing machine... then i ironed the clothes for tomorrow (today laa)...kire kat living room dgn dapur tuh dah ok laa... takut ok kalo tibe2 mertua dtg spot check..hahaha...

baiklah..saye rase itu sahaja buat hari ini... tata kawan2...

PS: tq suria!

Quote of the Day....

"Life is like an onion; you peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep"

What a beautiful saying... thanks to Nini for the quote.... you just have to go with the flow and at time there might be some obstacles ahead which might scare you off, but at the end of the day everything is going to be just fine...

Report of status change.

Hello En. Mohd Blog,
I am now officially changed my status from Cik to Puan on June 13th, 2009 at 11 a.m . I am now officially married to En Luqman Hakim a.k.a budak rayap. To those who made it to my wedding, I really appreciate it. The solemnization ceremony was held at my home in Seremban, and the reception was also held on the same day as my mother rather prefer to have it at one go. For pictures, kindly visit these links; Seremban (1), (2). Thanks to Nala, Suria, Dila, Ira Ayam, Wawa, Kak Wahiza, Kak Niza, Ira KM, Lobak, Zamber, Lynn, Syi2, Fatin, Amiza, Aishah, my SKEK students, and my colleagues for coming to my wedding.

Another reception was held in Bangi at my in-laws house on June 21st, 2009. I would also like to include the photo album of pictures taken on our way to Bangi. (Thanks to Yati, amirul, alina, adib, Nisa, fizah , warine, Junod, Ziegot, Pa'e, Anas and ina for coming).Overall, both reception ceremonies were totally enjoyable yet exhausting. I'm glad that my in-laws are friendly too and suke buat lawak slumber. So far, there is nothing to be complaint about. One thing for sure, i need to start learning Javanese Language as the family sometimes speaks in Javanese bila balik kampung. Kakngah, ajar laa makteh cakap Jawa... Awal2 duduk sana dah kene bawak gi jalan kebun, yang mane ia adalah agak kelakar kerana kebun mak saye pon saye malas rasenye nak pegi(walaupun berbuih mulut beliau mengajak saye pegi)...hihihihi.. lps tu balik singgah rumah (seremban) sekejap amik2 barang.. Only now i know that from Bangi to Beranang there is a shorter way, (i think it is less than 20 KM kot...mcm dekat sgt je)...

I only have time to update the blog today as i started to go to work again today after almost 3 weeks of holiday. Honeymoon?? We havent plan anything yet... but we went to watch movies, karaoke, and shopping to kill the time in between the two receptions. The best part of being married is that i get the chance to get pocket money from my en. awak before going to work, macam mase gi skolah dulu (rase cam kanak2 plak balik) ..hahahaha..yeayy!!!!... kalo alang bace nih, misti die ckp makteh mate duitan..ai loike!!!!..hahhahaha...tp takpe laa... ngeh ngeh ngeh...

All in all, i am happy with my new life. Thank you to my en. husband for making my life more complete.... .

Happy mode...

Guess where have i been yesterday??? So i went to this celebration....




So, i went to this "Hari Pendidik MARA 2009" a.k.a sambutan hari guru die laa jugak...tinggal lagi die panggil hari pendidik sbb it involved the teachers, technical instructors and lecturers from all education institution under MARA. This ceremony was held in GMI Bangi... tempat die sgt laa cantik dari segi landscape, architecture etc...

What about this event that made me so happy yesterday???? hmmm.....

SO, these were some of the parts that made my day...


I met my teacher, the one that gave me the name "Miss Nugget"...(the man in red shirt).. We did some reminiscing in the morning, when we met for the first time after like 8 years, i left MZMS... He was the one that i was so surprised and excited to meet yesterday.... i always talked about him to my mother and wondering how he's been all this while... I hope that he's going to be fine, healthy and blessed throughout his life....


Three of them were teachers in MRSM Muadzam while i was there..... 2 out of three were my teachers... the other one is an MRSM principal, but i couldnt recall the name of which MRSM..yg penting MRSM die ade menang something for their outstanding achievements.
From left: Ustaz Shahariman, Ustaz Ikhwan Khalil, the Principal, Cikgu Saffrin Mukhar Salleh (the reason why i loved Chemistry back then)...

My math teacher, Cikgu Sahla... and me .....hahahaha.. ade cam cikgu tak??? tapi tudung tu mcm dah terkebelakang sket..maklum laa, dah petang ..... i used to sleep while i was answering my math test (yang selalu diadakan pada waktu prep petang....hahahha...sorry ye cikgu...)... tapi kan tido tu mase dah lepas jawab test laa..dah mls nk revise lagi...



Owh ye, lupe nk bgtau... I parked my cark the other day side by side dgn kete Ustaz Ikhwan... hahhaha... :D... One more teacher that i met yesterday was my former English teacher, Pn Nurul Asyiqin Ikhwan Nasir (but i did not manage to catch her after the ceremony to take picture together), as well as Puan Norizan Kasah (mase tu lupe plak nak amik gambar, even though dpt jumpe die after the event was over..) ... I'm so glad to meet them all yesterday...
Supposedly, my other English teacher should be coming because i saw her name in the list, but unfortunately she was on leave and was replaced by some other teacher.

Wedding Invitation....( tajuk mcm decent sket kali ni)

Assalamualaikum ( bace mcm sasha [Din Beramboi] Pagi @ Era)


Dear friends,

As the English sayings " A picture is worth a thousand words", sila laa tgk pictures2 nih ye...

To all my friends, you are all invited....

looking fwd to see you..

Feel free to come...

Hello Moto!!!

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!
I'm glad to be back here in the blogosphere... some of my friends (jeeps laa tuh.. <-- bukan name sebenar) has already put their blog as private already..... oooo.... isi kandungan 18 SG ke???aku tau laa aku nih baru 15 taun...sian tau.... some of them (ceda<< bukan name sebenar) dah takmo tulis blog dah plak..... merajuk ke??isk isk isk...

so, from the silence of my beloved blog, i guess you would know that i was extremely and super duper busy with my assignments ( busy settling my accumulated assignments), works, and preparation... and i am SO proud to tell all of you people that ALL MY MASTER ASSIGNMENTS HAVE BEEN SUBMITTED, and that means unofficially I HAVE COMPLETED MY MASTER DEGREE......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeayyyy for me....
Jeeps, i have always hold on to your sayings... (sampai termimpi) and i passed it down to others like pjoy n ira, n a few others... moge2 dapat pahala kat ko...hik hik hik....

Actually, there are a lot of stuff i want to jot down, but i dont know which one should i write first...

i) During the period of me being silence i learnt a lot of stuff.. i learn more about people, i.e: students, fellow colleagues, and other people yg ade connection with me (directly).

ii) I have got new nick names from my students ( Teacher Fifi << erkk.....apakah???) and from my other colleagues ( cikgu Mila ...or is it milah ???? ..) belasah je laa labu....got the nickname during Bomba punye camping

iii) Previously, i only taught 5 classes of semester 1, and now, i am 3 semester 2 classes and only 2 semester 1 classes. I'm glad to know the new students, but i pity the students which i have handed over... personally, i felt close with the students...tp nk wat cemane kan?? saye yg menurut perintah laa kan...

lagi ape lg ek...i cant think of any.... nnt lah!!
babai.....

When the technology is gone...

my beloved friend jeeps just can't wait for Saturday to come around...haihh..This Saturday also means that i'm not going to get my beauty sleep until noon.... but i dont know why, it seems to me like Saturday is coming so quick.....jeeps would be happier if she was me :)) jeeps kan?? ni baru muqaddimah.. hak hak hak...

what will happen when you live without the technology??? my en. maxis 'beruk'band has just been rampoked by my en. fiance.... isk isk isk ..therefore, now i feel like living in the ice age again....*sigh* and life started to stress up... works are coming in.... the thing is, saye dah terbiase menjadikan en. berukband sebagai escapism selama ini...di kala boring, dikala gembira mahupun dikala tension...tetapi setelah en fiance buat muke ala2 sedih nk pinjam...maka saye pun bagi je laa...nasib baik laa saye masih boleh menggunakan handphone sbg modem...dan kali ini saya adalah lebih bijak sket dari aritu...saye dah activatekan unlimited access internet pada mobile number saye dan juge saye telah berjaya membuatkan en.tunang bersetuju utk membayar duit internet tersebut..yeayyy!!! walaupun connection adalah seeprti di zaman batu awal....lembab, psl ikut kelajuan phone.... tapi yg paling malangnye ialah, pada waktu en.tunang dah amik modem nih laa baru byk h/work dan kerja2 yang perlu diselesaikan menggunakan internet berkelajuan seperti halilintar.... bayangkan nak donlod attachment yg kat email pon berjanggut acik ni nunggu 'an....ayyoooo laaa hai......... poning den....

kini, sepatutnye saye stay up utk wat kertas final exam utk student, instead saye berblog pulak jadiknye...sob sob sob.... ok lah kawan2...babai...jeepss... HAPPY SATURDAY ye!!

saye perlukan cadangan....

kepada semua kawan2..dan orang yang membaca blog ni...
kebelakangan ini saya selalu berase mengantuk ketika drive di waktu pagi dan malam...( pegi keje n balik umah)...mengantuk yang dimaksudkan disini...adalah amat2 kronik, seperti mmg mau tido di waktu tersebut tanpa perlu menghentikan kete. Saye telah cube sedaya upaya untuk mengatasi masalah ini dengan membuka radio sekuat mungkin.... tapi tetap ngantuk... menjerit2 seperti orang gila utk menghilang kan rasa boring dan ngantuk...tetapi hanya efektif diwaktu saye menjerit seperti org gila tu aje...the moment saye berenti menjerit, saye ngantuk balik...makan chewing gum ...pun hanya pada waktu manis2 chewing gum masih ada....ape lagi?? sila bagi cadangan...

TAG 1

Tag No 1
Here are the rules - post this list on your profileblog replacing my answers with yours.Tag 25 people to do the same thing.

If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
- I don't think so..so far no stories from my parents of where he found this name... i only been told about the meaning only..
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
- just now... while nobody's watching
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
- ABSOLUTELY not! (yeah, pathetic..i know..)
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCH MEAT?
- not sure...whatever that interests me at that moment
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
- no, i dont.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
- of course
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
- at times... but occasionally to those who deserve it...
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
- As far as know, i have never removed anything from my anatomy...
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
- i dont think so...not that brave
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE CEREAL?
- hmm?? i dont usually eat cereals..but i bought the same as kakngah's nesvita oat
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
- owh no... too much work over there..
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM?
- Grape/blackcurrant
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
- their teeth
15. RED OR PINK?
- of course laa FINK
16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
- i always underestimate myself..
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? (READ :WHO not WHAT)
- hmmm??? my sister ...si rayap besall, alang gorjes....
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
- If possible
19. WHAT COLOUR OF PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
- no pants and shoes... only orange kain baju kurung and black heels
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
- Overhearing conversation at the round table next to my table ...regarding the minyak urut n tanduk kerbau...n another minyak urut, a colleague just bought (guys pun ade ok!!)
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
- I hate to choose color, i love colors...for now, Apple Green
23. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
- I like the smell of my nieces and nephews when they were babies...hahahaha...dah besar ade dah bau telur ...hehehehe...
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
- my kerani cuti, who is a very nice lady whom have helped me retyping the claim letter with the correct format.... hehehe...very nice...that's why i need to be nice to everybody
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
- yup. i like chit chatting with her..sometimes over nothing at all...hahaha
26. FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
- hmm??? i used to like watching F1, but now... none
27. HAIR COLOUR?
- black.
28. EYE COLOUR?
- dark brown
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
- nope
30. FAVOURITE FOOD?
- ntah laa..byk, yg sedap2.... too much to list it down
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
- happy endings
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
- zohan...ngokngek btol!!
33. WHAT COLOUR OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
- not wearing shirt...only orange (autumn-like) baju kurung
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
- winter
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
- Hugs
36. FAVOURITE DESSERT?
- fruit punch maybe..or taufu fa...
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
- to this ?? maybe no one...
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
-
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
- Making Sense Of Data by Glenn J.Wyatt (but trust me...i dont understand. saye bace pon sbb nk sedapkan hati kne buat test..)
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
- no mouse pad..
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
- Intan
42. FAVOURITE SOUND(S)?
- hik hik hik.... amr's voice recorded when he was 3 months old....(my sms ringtone alert)
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
- beatles better... but not quite a fan laa..
44. WHAT IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
- from home??alone??kuantan laa kot... if together with someone else, mekah or egypt, which one is the farthest?
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
- i could sleep while i'm on the phone ...hik hik hik...
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
- Hosp. Daerah Jelebu
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
Jeeps, Suria, Cyeda, Waida, Nazlin, and Everyone nice....

Tag no. 2
4 pekerjaan yang telah saya lakukan dalam hidup:

i. Pegawai Perkhidmatan Pendidikan Siswazah MARA (cikguu je maksudnye....tp ade name gempak!)
ii. Data Entry clerk
iii. External examiner (kan kaklong kannnn????)
iv. Penghabis beras kat rumah

4 cerita/drama bersiri yang saya nak tengok lagi dan lagi

i. Grey's Anatomy
ii. The parent trap
iii. Private practice
iv. Sex and the City

4 tempat saya telah pergi dalam seminggu ini

i. IKM KL
ii. UiTM Puncak Perdana
iii. Klinik Amal
iv. Klinik Permata... (saje tanak promosi klinik yg ngokngek lagi satu tu...)

4 Tempat saya patut berada sekarang

i. atas katil...(bestnye..)
ii. berjalan2 survey2 barang sekitar jalan TAR (tp gaji lom masuk lg...sob sob sob...)
iii. duduk berkhalwat menyiapkan byk homework Master
iv. pegi opis sain surat claim..

4 Orang yang saya nak tag....

i. jeeps
ii. suria
iii. waida
iv. kaklong!!!!

~sekian, terima kasihhhhhh~

langkah2 menangani stresss...

hahaha...walaupun sakit, saye tetap gelak besar.... seperti juga kate jeepsy, it is our choice to laugh or cry or whatever we feel like doing....so i choose to laugh and be happy...
owh ye, di sebabkan oleh rase ketidak puas hati-an saya terhadap doktor yang seperti acuh tak acuh (yer!!baru saye menemui/terpikirkan perkataan bahasa melayu die... utk dr yang saye tak suke cara die layan saye tu....), maka saya telah pergi ke klinik yang sgt saya suka pegi itu..walaupun mase tu saye baru balik dr kl berjalan2 survey2 kedai dgn saksik-saksik saye, lebih kurang 10.30, dan walaupun jugak semasa saye register utk jumpe doktor tu ade 10 org lg pesakit sblm saye... saye tetap determine utk jumpe doktor yg saye kenal...utk melegakan stress yang saye alami terhadap doktor yg acuh tak acuh tu( dah laa tak kenal, tah ape2 ntah lak tuh)...

Ape yang saye suke bile gi jumpe doktor kat klinik yg mmg saye slalu pegi ni...
(i) doktor2 die sgt lembut bile nasihat, kalo dgr die cakap..mmg rase nak ikut aje ape die ckp tu...(walaupun, sbnr kdg2 tak ikut pun...cthnye: jgn minum ais, aiskrim etc...hehehe..standard laa tu kann??)

(ii) diorg nih sgt2 laa attentive to our problems/stories...there are 3 doctors in this clinic. 3-3 tu sume baik2 belaka... die dengar kite cerita dulu..senyum aje, takde buat muke kerek2...eventhough ape yang kite ckp tu mungkin salah ke...die dengar dulu...dengan senyum yg tak pernah tinggal (ataupun mungkin muke die nmpk cam senyum??gua pun kompius)... so, usually, before nk gi clinic tu, saye call dulu tanye doctor ape, kalo bukan salah 1 dar yang 3 tu, saye tak pegi....sbb nnt saye akan mengalami perasaan tak puas ati...kalo yang ade tu doctor locums tu, ade 1 je drpade byk2 tuh yg ok sket...compared to yg locum lain2 tu (standard acuh tak acuh)

(iii) saye suke bile diorang explain psl kite punye sakit tu in very simplified word, layman terms laaa.. and they are willing to spend more time during the consultation ... maksudnye, kalo macam jenis yang acuh tak acuh tuh, kadang2 less than 3 minutes pon kite dah kuar balik... maybe because they know how to compensate the time we spent waiting for the turn...

banyak lagi sbnrnye...tapi tak tau nk tulis cemane.... yang penting saye puas ati dah ari nih... dan saye terase lebih sihat pagi ini... mungkin btol psychology kite amat2 laa membantu utk kite berase sihat sepenuhnya.. patut laa mase maklang saye sakit tangan mengelupas2, lepas mak saye bwk jmpe doktor kitorang yang baik nih, besok paginye terus dah elok!!! (magik sungguh!!) sebab die ade laa kot dpt treatment from other clinic, tpi mungkin dlm hati die mcm saye, ade rase tak puas ati ngn doktor tu.... jd susah nak sihat...

about the diagnosis of this doctor yg saye gi jumpe last night... he said actually maybe i got infected due to a lot of stresss and exhausted plak lagi tu.. bile dah terlampau stress dan penat,our immunity system adalah sangat fragileand easy to catch ape pun penyakit2...n tambah plak berdekatan dan berpelukkan plak dgn org yg berpenyakit... lebih mudah laa utk kene... tapi, bile difikir2kan, mmg mase saye jumpe anak2 buat saye yg kne HFMD tu, mmg waktu tuh saye amat2 laa penat and worn out (stress sket2)...yg jenis tak larat gile nk bgn lps tuh dah...bwk kete pun tangen mate adlh sangat kecik....

at least jawapan tuh boleh laaa saye terima..... dan kini saye merasa lebih sihat...

of HFMD and Laryngitis

owh ye...saye masih lagi sakit...masih perit menelan air liur sendiri.... saye sangat confuse tentang penyakit yg saye hidapi ni..... doktor yang saye lawati sblm ni, ckp mmg ade possibility sy kne HFMD, (knowing i had a direct contact with more than 1 pesakit en. HFMD tersebut) tapi mlm tadi setelah pegi ke klinik yang berlainan (kerana tak tahan sakit...) maka doktor yg lagi satu nih cakap kat saye, "Ini bukan HFMD tapi Laryngitis, orang besar MANA ADA kene HFMD..." walaupun setelah saye beritau akak ipar saye pon telah kene HFMD ni dari anak2 beliau (dan di diagnose oleh doktor), die tetap kata itu penyakit lain tuh... Oleh kerana die yg blaja medic dan saye hanye blaja TESL dan Knowledge Management, maka saya tidak mengetahui dengan lebih detail tentang segala penyakit yang ada di mukabumi ini..maka dia lah lebih arif (kot...) but he seemed cam sangat yakin dgn diagnosis nye sikit pon tak de perasaan yang die mungkin silap, n it seemed like he did not 'listen' to the patient..i mean cara cakap die tak membuatkan saye rase senang ati, dan kerek jgk kot...tak mcm doktor2 saye sblm nih kat klinik permata or klinik amal tu...kalo tau, mmg tak pegi klinik tu(demmm!!!)... maka saya pasrah....

walaupun tahap kesakitan dia ade kurang sket lepas mkn ubat yang dia bagi (dan sume takde yg sedap ..sob sob sob...)....it feels weird in my throat jugakkk.....the swelling is lessen but the ulcers is still there (did i mention there were more than 10 ulcers in my throat ?? at the back of my throat, at the sides as well as pangkal lidah...) it hurts a lot to swallow foods or even my own saliva..and what make it worst, nak menguap pon sakit..hilang satu nikmat dunia(harap2 hanye sementara)...demmmm!!!!!

shiannn chabuttt

i'm currently down with high fever.. and religiously taking up my medications to get better... ubat demam/ tahan sakit je ade 2 jenis doktor tu prescribe...ponstan(rasenye) ngan uphamol 500... and that makes me sweating like hell at the moment of typing this... tp menurut mak saye, berpeluh tuh tande nye sihat... dan owh ye!! saye telah dapat MC selama 2 hari oleh Dr. Zainon..

btw, kakak ipar saye suruh berhati2 and be more aware takut kene HFMD (Hand foot&mouth disease)..walaupun adults rarely infected by the disease, tapi die kene,setelah anak2 die kene jgk...shiannnn chabuttt...

dan penulisan entry ini juga adlh disebabkan oleh arahan warden yang amat ditakuti, iaitu cik jeepsy, yang telah mengghaibkan segala entry die sblm2 nih....tetapi masih lagi bergembira... saye amat gembira dengan kegembiraan dan keceriaan anda!!!tahniah!!

KEPIMPINAN MELALUI TELADAN!!!!!!!!!!

halloooo....supposedly, my parents and i should be in shah alam at this moment, but then an old friend to my mother just came this evening. we thought i was just a friendly visit 'ziarah2' after years of not meeting or even contacting face to face.. to tell you the truth i dont even recognize this fella, but according to my mother, she was a good friend of her laa... agak 'kamceng' laa this two fellas back then... ibaratnya, dulu if my family (only consisted of 2 my eldest siblings and my parents) came over to her house, she would be catching her chicken to be slaughtered to become the dishes of the day... if you dont know, back then...if the host sampai sembelih ayam utk di buat lauk tuh...the guest must be very special..it should be a very important guests laa... for example, if pengantin baru dtg bertandang ke... atuk nenek datang ke... that important laa... so my mother was excited telling me stories how close they were dolu2...
and then, she arrived with her anak buah laa kirenye...we treated them more special compared to the previous guests we entertained, with pulut (purposely cook.. knowing her coming, the previous guests kitorang hidang biskut azan je pun..) mase berjamu2 tuh, ok laaa...they (she n my parents) did some reminiscence together .... so, after borak2, my father asked he how she's doing..what she's doing now...bla bla bla... and she replied, she is currently venturing into business, and that young girl she brought together was her business partner... hmm.. n then my father being curious, asking her what sort of business?? and his intention was just cathing up with an old friend laa kan...bukan ape2 pun... and then right after makan2, die pun start laaaa nk mendirect selling di rumah kami (cth product: water filter, tupperware, skincare..etc just name it!!).... you know what my father did?? haha, immediately making excuse to the bathroom...and never came back...huhu... sweeett!!!!..i wanted to do the same, but then, sian plak mak saye kne layan bende tu sorang2...takkan laa plak die nak halau kan?? hik hik hik... i gave her (this makcik) a lot of excuses i.e : i still dont have my own gaji yet....and mase die promote skin care tu (knowing that i'm getting married), gua saje je laa cakap, takpe laa....dah ade pakai barang banyak dah..tak cukup cantik lagi ke nih??? (sambil menunjuk kan jari2 ke arah muke dan mengelip2 mate..) tau ape die jawab?????? BELUM!!!! hangat hati gua!!! pastu ade ke die ckp muke budak yg die bwk tuh cantik??owh tidak....tidak same skali...gua tak mau mengutuk ciptaan tuhan...mmg kalo pada awalnye gua ade tergerak ati nak beli pon...gua kensel beb!!!!
yang gua rase tak logik tu, ade ke die lepas tuh promote kat mak gua suruh beli skincare tu n suruh mak gua pakai biar kulit tegang....tapi die tak pakai.... kalo ikut hukum hakam laa kan, bukan ke kalo kite nak suruh orang buat sesuatu, kite kne buat dulu...KEPIMPINAN MELALUI TELADAN, kannn???? damn!!!!!!!!!!

welcome to my life!!!

owh..hello en. mohd blog... ape kabar anda arini...
sorry for not being able to update u for quite sometime.. been really busy..i have started working in ikm kl for almost 3 weeks now..
so, most people were asking about the new place, new environment and all.. my life has changed drastically..how to describe my life???let me see.. i dont get enough sleep these days..in which i got too much of it last time...how i miss those days when i could sleep anytime i want.. now, i only have less than 6 hour of sleep everyday...EVERYDAY!!!!! i dont know how i can adapt to this new life of mine very well... i dont know how i do it, but really glad that i can do it... just imagine, i woke up as early as 5.35 a.m. to get ready to go to work... by 6.30 i must be ready in my ride.... if i'm not lucky i'll be stuck in traffic jam right after the sg besi exit, pandan perdana as well as near tesco ampang.. paham2 je laa kalo kat kl ni punye jammed...rase nak beli helicopter jam2 tu jugak...
usually i reach school around 7.50 am and after school at 5, i will go to shah alam for my master classes straight away....usually reach uitm on time, 630... my classes end at 930-945 pm. pastu kne drive balik seremban... the conclusion is... i live a hectic life these days...i reach house around 1045-11.00..n eat ..then i buat door gift sket2 while watching tv ....n go to bed around 12...and wake up again at 535...
smlm i was very tired after work and as soon as i reach school (i reach early yesterday around 6), i rest a.k.a 'terrrrrtido' in my car until 645...it's like, get your sleep when u can while u can...usually i can never sleep that easy.. but then, i must be very very exhausted..
my punch card baru merah sekali..n that was after the thaipusam aritu...tp lewat beberapa saat laa kot ...8.01 am..
about my cuti, i have 25 days annual leave...boleh laa buat cuti sesuka hati...i prefer cuti yg buleh amik mcm opis nih rather than mcm cuti sekolah...then nnti buleh plan cuti sendiri...kan??? hahaha...
so, about the new environment..everyone is very helpful and supportive (so far..)... and i think i am happy to be here... as for the students, i find that they are actually good students, though they are not as bright as mrsm students laa kan, but they are happening laa, i enjoy the classes very much....about the job, teaching is not that hard..i am also appointed as the secretary for preparation for sambutan maulidur rasul peringkat kebangsaan. tp persiapan ikm la..
ok laa...i dont know what else to write...n yess, now i dont have time to do my homework...dammnnn!!!!!!!!

turn around....bright eyes...

yerp..... that's part of the lyrics for total eclipse of my heart..and as usual, takkan ade kaitan dgn tajuk entry... tapi tajuk lagu ade laa sket2 part eclipse tuh... actually, i felt lucky to witness solar eclipse this evening... walaupun tak berjaye jadik angkasawan negara, tak bermakna saye nih tak minat dgn kejadian2 sains astronomi yg berlaku di sekeliling saye..kalo saye sempat, saye nak jugak experience tgk bende tuh..yer tak?? so that, nnti ade laa modal nak cerita ceriti pasal gerhana matahari... tp kalo gerhana bulan, tak laa heran sgt ..psl die diwaktu mlm yg gelap...

so, tadik mase tgh tgk tu sy telah msg ramai org utk ajak tgk sekali.. cth nye adlh spt: akak2 saye, dan jugak beberape kawan saye....suria and nadiah dan dekja...saye sgt excited utk tgk gerhana tuh tadi sbb seingat saye, dulu mase skolah rendah ade laa skali bende tu jadik ( yang tawau boleh tgk full solar eclipse),tp mase tuh kami dlm kelas dan cikgu tak kasi keluar sbb takut kitorang sakit mate mase tu ke ape ke ntah..lebih kurang camtuh laaa reason dia... so, terlepas laa mase tu....

owh ye..saye juge tlh menjalankan experiment tadi dgn telur ayam...telur ayam saye boleh berdiri tegak, kalo takde gerhana tak boleh (rasenye laa...), mcm ada kaitan dgn graviti laa ape laa ntah.. tp itu adlh menurut encik tunang saye laa kan...saye blom jumpe kitab die lagi..nnt saye carik!!

yg turut serta bersama2 saye menyaksikan gerhana matahari tu tadi ialah anak sedare saye yg bernama yaya...org tgk pakai negative film die pun nak...(walaupun die mungkin tak memahami apa2 psl gerhana nih....tp die sgt interested utk teman saye mengadap matahari tuh for more than an hour...saye sbnrnye nak tgk sampai die bukak balik, tp mak saye ajak gi giant utk pegi bli barang...so around 615 (masa tu, die dah start bukak balik laa matahari tu...) saye pun berenti tgk matahari tu...

orait..till then... babai

owh kak wai...

wai..dah letak password ekk??? oh sungguh kepoci saye ..... hahahha...

saye benci maxis!!!

ape kah laaa en. maxis broadband nih ..mcm haram...macam ayam...macam ntah ape2 ntah lagi.. ade ke patut takleh connect kat tiara beach nih ...nih pon tgh pakai wireless kat lobby hotel...hampeh punye maxis.. bayar mahal2, tp servis cam ayam....
first day tuh buleh laa connect,pastu ntah ape pasal ntah...takleh connect plak..dah berbakul2 complaint saye bagi kat customer servis exec tu..tapi still tak ok... sakit ati ,mmg laa takde 3G kat sini, tp ade je EDGE full bar..kalo takleh connect, takpayah laa panggil wireless broadband..benci!!!...tak kisah laa kalo lembab pun, ini tak buleh langsung plak nk login...ngok ngek punye maxis broadband!!! korang jangan gune laaa maxis broadband..

ps: saye benci broadband

huk huk huk ~~...

i am confused with the feeling that i have right now... i should be happy and grateful with the job that i already have..at first i was, but now i started to feel nervous wondering what will happen next.... what happen when i started working?? will i like the environment?? will i be able to adapt with the new environment...?? i started to feel nervous because, only now i realized that i will go there alone.. i will be the ONLY newbie (being alone is not problem to me.. i willbe able to adapt)at that place...that sounds scary.. what more to be scared about?? owh..about the culture they have in these kind of places... yeah2, i have tonnes of reasons to freak out like i do right now..

among these other teachers, there are a few that already have experience with this institution..and from what i heard, there are some cultures that i hope i won't face at my place... i really hope that they will be kind to this petite lil' girl here, since i am the only one new teacher that is being posted there...(i pray hard...please pray for me too) i hope that i dont have to endure any trauma or culture shock there...

ps: oh ye... skang saye masih di PD. besok baru abes...

ini sume dusta belaka!!!

tipu~~!!! orang kate kalo badan penat sangat boleh tido awal.... tipu!!!!
smlm tuh penat je memenatkan diri dengan segala misi... tapi mlm tuh tetap tak buleh tido awal...dlm kol 3 jgk kot baru terlelap... sape tau cemane nak tido awal dgn cemerlang ??? mungkin kak wai dan jeepsy buleh jawab kan...hehehe...

oh ye suria, saye dah jawab persoalan anda tadi yer!

entri merapu dari saye... time kasih!!

disebabkan oleh cik suria tensi dgn entri saye yg sblm nih ..yelaa2... ni nk tulis laa nih...

about the decision that i have to make that determines my life and death (poyo jerk nih..exaggerating), finally i made my decision.. i'm going to take both of them... i'll take the job and i WILL continue my master at the same time.. n yg lebih memeranjatkan saye sendiri ialah, saye sendiri telah mengambil keputusan berani mati dengan mengambil 4 subject sekali gus pada semester ini...after went into the classes for 2 weeks... i find it interesting, lagi pun kalau ambik sem nih, i will be with those familiar faces, nk buat group pun senang .. n at least we know orang nih cemana, yg tu cemana..and able to compromise with them laa... To me, if i keep on doubting and underestimating my own capability, i can never know how good i could be (cewah..).. I think i should challenge myself to know what i'm capable of... and i personally believe that i work best under pressure.. so, i am prepared to work my a** off... chaiyok!!! i can do it!!

owh and yes..today is a busy day for me..not that i'm busy with my work ke ape..tp saje buat2 bizi..i made myself as busy as i could ( and yes..i wake up early in the morning on SUNDAY, ok!!) i went to kedai tayar to get all my tyres changed (not my "spare" tyre, tau~~ hik hik hik..itu kene kasik maintain!! )..kat kedai tuh aje sampai kol 2..3 daripada tayar2 tuh mmg botak btol, 1 tu org kedai tu ambik utk tayar secondhand..abes laa 600 lebih.. pengsan nyawa aku!!lps tuh balik umh, masak ( my mum is not feeling very well..demam sket kot, walaupun begitu, sempat jugak die pegi kebun durian kat kepis)..tp masak sayur ngn goreng telur je pon, my ayah masak gulai tunjang dengan kundang.. we lunched around 3 o clock or so.. after that, saye pun tanpa mengenal erti kenyang, mengadap pulak buah durian...2 bijik saye sorang, ok!..mlm tadi tak mkn nasik, melantak durian je plak...almaklum laa..kat umh nih ade 3 org aje..tapi, durian kat dapur tuh ade laa dlm 3 bakul besar..pastu tadi ade sepupu saye plak datang, ajak makan durian plak lagi..die datang segerombolan pon durian tuh tak luak pon jugak..masih lagi 3 bakul... itu pon setelah bagi die bawak balik dalam seguni...masih jugak 3 bakul.. Oleh itu kawan2..sape rase nak mkn durian, jangan laa merase segan silu utk datang menyerbu rumah saye.. tapi umah seremban laa yer, bukan umh s alam...kalo umh s alam, bukan aje ajak minum, ajak masuk pon blom tentu..hua hua hua hua.... oh..terkeluar topik plak saye...lps makan durian tadik, saye pon pegi laa keluar untuk memenuhi misi (bukan makcik ummi misi).. seterusnye :membasuh kereta..
lps basuh kete, balik umh tgk2 ade sepupu&co dtg makan durian kat umah tuh..lps diorang balik, saye pegi sapu "rain act" kat cermin kete saye...dan kemudian duduk tercongok di depan Mr.V slps magrib.

Tujuan saye memenatkan diri adalah utk mendapatkan tidur yg lena pada mlm nih dan buleh bgn pagi besok dgn mudahnye( buleh ke??).besok saye dah kene pegi pd utk register...that's that..

lps tu, satu lagi cerita dongeng yg akan saye sampaikan ialah, aritu 10/01/09 saya telah berangkat ke kuantan utk menghadiri majlis perkahwinan anak bekas pengetua saye di mrsm mzms.. saya rase mcm saye kene pegi di sebabkan oleh personal invitation daripada ustaz wan melalui telefon pada sebelum krismas aritu, n lagi satu en. tunang saye yg nak pegi jumpe ustaz tuh jugak..almaklum laa ustaz tu baik btol..dan yg paling penting dia yang nak sponsor duit minyak ngn tol..yeayy!!time kasih ye,rayap!!nnt sponsor laaa lagi yer!!(owh yer, sbnrnye die bg duit utk buat balancing ngn alignment tayar tuh tadik..tapi duit ganti tayar tu mak saye yg sponsor ) tapi tuh laa, tak sempat sgt nk jalan2 kat kuantan tuh memandangkan, pada mlm tersebut, sorang kwn zaman asasi melangsungkan majlis perkahwinannya di subang jaya.. dan disebabkan saye dah lame tak jumpe kawan2 asasi, zilla lenni dan kere (baca cmni: ke sekolah, dan Do Re Mi ), lalu saye rase ini juga adlh sesuatu yg wajib pegi..jadi saye pegi laa... owh, masih belum terlewat lg utk saye wish Zila n Kere slamat pengantin baru..moga berkekalan sampai ke akhir hayat... ramai jugak kengkawan asasi saye nak kawen dah nih.. Ady a.k.a Adnyn Muhanifa 25/1/09, Pero a.k.a Aisyah Fairuz 6/02/09 kot... Farraliza bulan 3 ..tak igt tarikh... to pero ngn ady, pertandingan korang tuh, aku jadik hakim tau!! hahahaha...

so ape lagi ek...ntah laa...saye ade bercadang utk menulis entri yg berbentuk ilmiah pulak laa lepas nih...agak2 ok tak??? hahahha...(bercadang je baru...) kirenye, macam memberi lecture kepada anda2 sumer (yer anda!!) mengenai Knowledge Management, iaitu program master yg saye sedang buat...biar nnt anda sume pon dpt masterji bersame2 saye...dan terbukak hati nak sambung master jugak... nasihat saye, carik bidang yang btol2 anda minat, and sambung.. to tell u the truth, saye tak penah terfikir pun boleh dapat result macam result master nih...terase menyesal mase degre tak belajar elok2, sbb dulu tak rase pandai pun... dulu2 pnah laa terpikir "blaja cemane pun, kalo dah kureng ok tuh...takkan dapat punye 3.50.." kirenye, tak payah mimpi laa...tp skang saye mempunyai perspective yg jauh berbeza dari dulu... and that's what we call "learning process"....

ps: did u know diorang measure the level of development of the country melalui bilangan professional and qualification para citizen nye jugak??? therefore, kalo nak jadikkan Malaysia nih negara maju cepat, cepat2 laa sambung master..even better sambung sampai PhD... kalo boleh, jgn laa bagi alasan "kalo sambung master pun, bukan gaji naik pun..."

rase nak tulis....tapi...

malas... tp byk bende nak tulis sbnrnye....

di sini saye nk mengucapkan takziah di atas pemergian salah sorang anak buah kedah saye, Allahyarham Mohd Farhan Abd Ghani, pd waktu maghrib smlm(Jumaat).. takziah kepada keluarga beliau..Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh allahyarham..Memang jelas laa yg Allah lebih sayangkan arwah..

pastu actually byk lg yg nak tulis..tp nnt laalain kali...di waktu ade mood.. daaa...

December 31st, 2008

finally... the year of 2008 is about to leave us in less than 4 hours ( at the moment of typing).. SO i guess this is also a good time for me to re-evaluate myself before making a new-year resolution(s).... (mcm series giler aje kan?)

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Scanning Completed!

heh.. as far as i'm concerned, most of my last-year's resolutions achieved (or maybe almost achieving) their goals..

1) to get good results for my master's studies..checked!
2) try to find myself a job..checked !(almost..got one aritu, tp tak pegi..and this one i think, i'll go for it..)
3) *** ******* ** **** ...checked!(almost laa gak sbnrnye)

so, my new years resolution would be:
1) get item (2) and (3) fully achieved ...
2) try to balance everything in my life...
3) complete my master's degree by the end of the year...
4) continuously trying to be a better person...


Bon Voyage 2008 and Welcome 2009... I really hope that this year will be more than just wonderful.. It is hoped that everything will fall into place for me...amin...

Al Fatihah..

Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun.. di atas kemangkatan Yang di Pertuan Besar Negeri Sembilan.. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke ata roh beliau..

Member-get- member deal..

seperti yang telah saye jangkakan terjadi... bil telefon saye utk bulan ini adalah melambung dgn amat tinggi...sbb aritu mase kat PD saye gune internet dgn menggunakan tpon sbg modem walaupun hanya dlm mase lebih kurang 1JAM sahaje..(teknologi mmg canggih...tp isk isk isk)...walaupun jumlah penggunaan panggilan hanyalah lebih kurang RM 22 sahaja...poor me!

stressed!

Year end sale!! Malaysia's big saving sale...discounts up to 70%!!!!

haaa...!! amik..terbeliak bijik mate anda sume kan??? oh, tapi seperti biasa, mendung tak bererti hujan....tajuk entri juge tak menggambarkan isinya, begitu juga dgn pepatah omputih, don't judge a book by its cover..

penulisan entri ini bukanlah bermaksud saye sudah membuat pilihan utk persoalan2 hidup yg di paparkan di dlm entri yg sebelumnya..tetapi ini adalah entri tiada kena mengena langsung dgn persoalan tersebut.. entri ini hanyalah bermaksud utk saje2 je...

Pada mlm tadi, saye ada laa berhubung dgn anak buah kedah (kerana arwah pak sedare sulung saye kawen dgn org kedah..dan anak buah ini adlh cucu kpd arwah pak sedare saye nih ..) kami lebih kurang sebaya dan kami lebih senang berhubung melalui instant messaging dan sms, dan mungkin atas sebab kami ni lebih kurang sebaya, kami lebih senang berkomunikasi antara satu dgn lain...

so, nk dipendekkan cerita.. baru2 ni, beliau yang sorang nih cerita laa kat saye yang ade satu konflik keluarga telah berlaku.. lalu saye pun bertanya laa konflik ape?? hehe..die pun jawab, konflik tgh berebut tarikh kenduri kawen pada cuti sekolah bulan 3 nanti...(gimik bukan main..!! konflik tuh..) utk pengetahuan, 3 anak buah kedah saye yg sedang berebut tarikh tu (actually parents diorang laa..anak2 bese tak amik port kot..) 2 daripadanya dah bertunang dan sorang lagi tu potong trip org2 yang dah tunang tuh terus nikah(dah jodoh die dulu, yer tak??)...tp bukan laa sampai bergaduh ke ape..jgn pikir negative tau!! Saye bagi cadangan kat die nih supaye buat je combine..tak payah susah2 rebut tarikh..buat sama2...diorang pun jimat blanja, kite yg nak pegi makan kenduri nih pun jimat jugak..yer tak???(yer la kann.. kene jugak pikir duit minyak, tol, dan blanje2 lain ..[buatnye lepas pegi makan kenduri tuh, nak lajak kan perjalanan ke langkawi ke..padang besar ke..]

So, diorang pun blom bg tau keputusan akhir die mcm mana...kite tunggu dan lihat..

(agak2 laa kan tajuk tuh ade kaitan tak ngn entri???)

of mawi and siti nurhaliza (part 2)

hehe..to cyeda...ramalan mu benar belaka..it is Guru M**A... and the place utk report duty will be T***A Beach Resort in PD..so, you got that one right...

thank you kakngah for the opinion...

today, i received a wake up call from En. R***M...and just what need this time, something that will make this decision making tougher!!! another interesting (i mean really interesting!!) project proposed by my classmate (master's class), En. R***M about an upcoming project for the faculty regarding KM implementation in Malaysia's Automotive Manufacturers .. This project is something we (our class) are planning to leave for the faculty (haha..sentimental!!).. and to do this, i believe that i need to have ample time in my hands to focus on the project...from the explanation i get from en. R***M, it does sound like a big project... Our senior had organized a forum, inviting "big-shots" being the panels doing knowledge sharing session.. so, we thought that we should also leave sth to remember us by.. pastu ade sebut psl buat trip sumer, cari sponsor n all...hahahah ...ai loike!! ( yg tu sbnr nye, yg interesting!!!)

i also asked an opinion from an online friend whom already hold a PhD in something related to datacomm amende ntah..tak pnah tanye in details (in fact, i dont even know his fullname, i just know his YM id)...hehe.. so, he sort of telling me to complete the master first, and the job will always be available ...dont worry about the job...

but still i'm still in dilemma...hahaha...fenin2

terpingga...tertanya...di dalam dilema mu~~ (of mawi and siti nurhaliza)

at last..the result for the previous semester has been out already..and i am happy about it... i'm quite surprise of it actually..tapi biase laa kontrol macho.. and what's more important, it's far better than the previous semester's result.. Thank you Allah... and also those helped me directly and indirectly...

other than that.. now i am facing dilemma between 2 choices... i just got a job offer from a govt statuitory body as a teacher ( i suppose)( and it is also a permanent post, ok!!).. i received notification via sms that asking me to check for the details from the internet.. so i did... why is it i'm torn between 2 choices??? (and that reminds me of "the road not taken")

as everyone knows, currently i'm pursuing my master and i have only 1 semester to go.. and next year, if the news from the TV3, utusan and other news network about the next recession happened to be true, that means less chances for me of getting hired by any company anytime soon..Plus, i'm getting married next year..and currently my financial support comes from FAMA (my father and mother)...

What i needed the most right at this moment is reliable and consistent financial income...but at the same time, i wanted to finish my master (i more semester, remember??) very badly... so, if you were in my shoes, which road do you choose??

which one should i prioritize??? what i need or what i desire/want???
some of you would say, why not just finish my master because my parent will be sponsoring me, inside out...makan, minum, place to stay (currently, i stay alone in a 3 room apartment/flat..all by myself), car...duit jajan n what not...sumer cukup, except for duit shopping and joli katak (usually entertainment sponsored by en.fiance..tapi bukan shopping, only wayang2, dating2, game2 etc sahaje...hehe) tapi utk therapy minda (shopping)nggak ada..jadi tiada joli katak, dan minda juga tidak tenang...

pasal kawen pon, saye rase saye memerlukan sumber kewangan sendiri supaya saye dapat merase sedikit berpuas hati dengan majlis yg akan hanya berlangsung sekali seumur hidup itu, maksud saye, sapekah yg sangat baik hati yg sudi mensponsor majlis kawen saye jadik best macam mawi dan siti nurhaliza??? ade ke?? mesti takde kan?? tapi saye takde laa nak majlis yg grand giler mcm diorang tu, but still i have dreams of my own and i wish to fulfill them satu pon cukup laa kalo tak semua, kan???
And again, mmg la my parents yg akan buatkan majlis tu and all..tapi bile org buatkan, org yg kuar kan duit, the theme most probably will be "back to basics" if you know what i mean...if i wanted to hv opinion/have anything extra..kata2 kena selari dengan duit jugak..mcm kirim barang kat orang laa jugak, kalau pesan dgn air liur, dapatnye air liur jugak..bukan tak bersyukur...tapi, this is once in a lifetime's event..

yg en. fiance ni plak lagi satu...bile suruh die yg sambung master ke apatah lagi phd , banyak je alasan die...tapi beriya-iya nak suruh kite pegi sambung phd terus biar die dpt ikut, pastu kate " ape masalah nye sambung phd??" kalo ade cermin yg boleh pantulkan kata2 tuh pada diri die sendiri kan best (if only...).... as for now, i'm tired of studying (buat mase nih je, esok lusa dah recharge energy, ok laa balik)...penat dah... i felt my brain swelling...

Owh..back to the problem..the thing is, kat website yg announce result psl job offer tu, tak bagi tau pon where will i be posted to, so i get confused whether to accept the offer or not.. kalo die dah bg tau placement kat mane tu takpe jugak..tp nih takde..kalo tau placement bleh laa consider nk pegi ke tak kan???either to take the offer and still do the master ke...the problem is i dont know what to do with my master class...dah nak register dah nih ..org tuh suruh pegi report duty dulu, baru bagitau placement...diorang akan terus suruh report duty kat ade sebuah resort di port dickson dan kat situ baru akan tau ape akan jadi selepas itu..

back to the dilemma, can anybody give me perspectives?????

should i take it or should i not???

what do you think??

vacation mood...

now i'm having sort of vacation in Mayangsari PD... Againn... tp kire ok laa... but this place reminds me of my tesl friends a lot especially the trip we had last year.. Yeah..as Siti said our batch didnt really bond with each other but by having the class trip made me realize that actually we did not really get to know each other in the previous 4 years... my classmates adlh sgt happening and pening at the same time.. hehe!

so now, i started to feel serenity and calm within me.. it's a good thing, isnt it?? haha..maybe it's because the result is not out yet and hey, i'm in no rush...so dont bother to come out just yet.just let me enjoy this zen-like feeling for little more longer, enjoy sleeping soundly every night...hmmm...bestnye! it's like i have nothing to worry about and i'm loving it!!

owh ye..lupe plak nk bgtau..skang nih saye berada di PD nih bersama2 mak ayah saye dan bangah dan kakngah dan hanan dan zara dan umar dan of kos awoo...diorang tido lagi kot..i slept early last night, around 1030 kot..and woke up around 3 am and could not sleep anymore.. so i decided to surf the internet using my phone as the modem (abes laa bil gue..) for like an hour or so...then i watched 3 episodes of Private practice season 2 downloaded last week..After subuh, i went to the lobby to use the wireless service... Owh ye jugak lagi, misti ramai yg tertanya2 ttg keberadaan maxis broadband saye tuh kan??? modem tersebut berada di tangan en. fiance kerana saye sedang bercuti di rumah dan ade en. streamyx...saje sian tgk die kebosanan... hmm tu laa, nk wat cmane lagik kan...daripada gelap tadi, ni dah terang benderang dah nih..

Ok laa..nk naik la dah..tgk kanak2 tu dh bgn ke blom... orait....tatalll

Official entry

Last saturday, i am officially engaged to en.bf. Therefore from now on, i should address him as en. fiance...rase kelakar laa pulak.. ooopps sorry, tergedik seketika... abes laa, since my sisters (including in-law[s]) and my cousin[s], are part of the readers of this blog...kang kantoi laa plak saye seorang yang gedik *blushing* hahaha... so, for this entry, i think i would just briefly describe one of the events in my life, and that is of course laa about the engagement day... it's not that i felt like the event wasnt important in my life but somehow i just couldnt really "feel" it...i'm happy but it's just takde "feel" laa... i dont know what's the reason(s) behind it, but.. you tell me!
(1) To some of you that have read the announcement (yang skang nih saye dah hide kan entry tersebut atas sebab2 tertentu), you would know that my make up artist wasnt here, and that makes 2 of my sisters were not here during the event...
(2) my en. fiance pun tak datang pada hari kejadian, di sebabkan oleh perintah larangan daripada ibundanya...so, sbg anak yg THO'AT (sebut seperti bahase arab ye), make die pun menurut perintah..
(3) lepas tu mase time2 org(sebelah) nak amik gambar dgn star of the day nih, tetibe laa plak one of my nieces , yaya came to me and said something like "tuyaa" repeatedly and at the same time pull my hand..ntah ajak gi mane ntah...tp tak dapek laa den nak ngikut doh...dah laa pelat lagi..so tak tau laa ape yg die nk ckp sbnrnye...tp comel! hehehe...tp dh hilang feel sket nk amik gambar posing2...
(4) lagi satu, the whole day, i didnt feel nervous at all....i mean even mase nk gi konvokesyen pun rase nervous bagai nak gile...pastu kalo time nk kne g interview, siap takleh tido lagi.... ini, agak nyenyak laa jugak sehingga waktu dikejutkan...tido baekkkk punye!takde rase berdebar2 la pendek katenye...
(5) none of my friend is coming. tp yer laa, i just invited kawan skolah rendah, which are majority area seremban laa...bukan tanak ajak org2 tesl, asasi ke ape...tanak menyusahkan korang je ...

and there were also interesting stories (at least to me) that happened that day while i was putting on my own make up (sob sob ..for doing my own make up..)...
(1) one of my cousin's daughter, decades older than me tumpang mandi in my bathroom, n then after seeing me putting make up by myself (note: i was alone in that room earlier), she asked,
Cousin's Daughter: make up sendiri ke dik???
me: (saje buat muke kunun cam sedih) a'aa..siann kene make up sendiri...make up artist takde..
Cousin's Daughter: takpe2 jap lagi ******* tolong mekap kan lepas mandi nih...
me: (OMG!!!!!) lantas selepas je die masuk bilik air,

maka saya dgn sepantas halilintar menyiapkan makeup saye sehingga habes....cuma tak sempat pakai lipstick je... tgk2 die kuar bilik air saye dah siap...hehehe ..dlm hati tuh, nasib baik sempat siapp...hehehe..saje je tanak nyusahkan org lain utk mekapkan...hehehe :P (note for saksik: kakcik, blusher die same laa ngan awak !!! hehehehe) itu pun,mase pakai lipstick nih, saye telah dicadangkan oleh mekap artis saye utk pakai kaler yg tak laa merah cam makngah..so, after saye pakai lipstick tu org tuh komen lipstick saye pucat..so, utk menjaga ati, saye pun pakai laa merah sket...tp tuh pun cam pink sketttt je...

(2) one of my mom's anak buah (umur dah warga emas laaa) dulu (menurut pemahaman saye sblm hari kejadian) ckp kat mak psl anak kwn die(lelaki) tak kawen lagi n nk dicarikkan laa spouse utk anak lelaki kwn die...so, i tot mule2nye die suruh mak carik kan kot2 org taman guru nih ade sape2 anak pompuannye cikgu dan tak kawen lagi...rupe2nye pada awal alkisahnye die adalah bertanye kpd mak saye mengenai perihal saye utk dikenenkan dgn anak lelaki kwn nye itu... saye amat bernasib baik kerana beberapa tahun yg lepas, ketika saya mengikuti satu rombongan menghantar cincin tunang di Serting, i have had a conversation with my mother, and conversation tu lebih kurang camnih laa :
Me: mak, org yang tunang nih, die carik sendiri ke orang yg carikkan??(fyi: i like to ask this kind of question to my mother..haha...kepoci)
Mak: Abang die yang runding kan...nape plak??
Me: ooo..takde ape..tapikan nanti kan adik TANAK camtuh tauu....

SO, i reckoned my mother still remember that conversation or maybe because i have invited en. fiance formerly known as en.bf to meet my parents....So, instead of me, she suggested our neighbour's daughter...lucky me... Overall, the event went well if not very well... (since u know, most of the time i was in my room..hehe, saye nih kan pemalu..) about the hantaran i received, there was no problem at all to finish all the cake, chocolates, and fruits..because i have lots and lots of relatives, anak buahs and what not...even before i opened the gifts, i noticed some of their eyes (especially the kids) were on the gifts especially the cake and the chocolate...so, dlm mase yg amat sekejap, bende2 tu abes.. So that's about it...that’s about the day.... and i’ll just put a few pictures...

this is the simplest design of sireh junjung that i could find in old collection of magazines....that tall thing is candle ok!!



the hantaran i got

this is me after the "sarung cincin". the one in tudung labuh is my en. fiance's maklong and the one with yellow tudung/hijab is my soon to be mother in-law....(alamak..nervous tuh delayed laa..baru sampai....)


thanks a lot to my sister in-laws for helping me out with the hantaran....

haaa...kan dah kantoi!!!!

alhamdulillah, my father gets better every day.. and i'm thankful...

haha...i thought that the readers of my blog are just my tesl friends and ex-schoolmate... rupa2nye udah ramai yg tau...hua hua hua... cemane nih???my camouflage as Miss Nugget tidak lagik berkesan di kala ini.... oleh itu, saye kne kontrol ayu sket.... (",) hehehe..

tu laaa.. kan dah kantoi!

a gloomy one....

what has been planned earlier was that today we (my parents and i- since i am the official driver to my folks during the holiday) were supposed to go to Felda Sg. Lui (2-hour drive from Seremban) to a family gathering of my late aunt. My father insisted on going to this particular event, because at first they planned to hold the kenduri on the 29th but unfortunately one of my neighbour was going to have a wedding ceremony for her first daughter and, and since our house is very near we were obligated to help out and attend the wedding.. Since my father informed my cousins that he couldnt make it on the 29th, they were more than happy to switch the date to the 30th as long as my father could come to the kenduri (since my father is the only uncle they have left in the family..please note that my father is now 71 years old, and the last born in his family).

What happen this morning was suddenly my father could hardly walk by himself and needed a tongkat to walk (but still, i just cant believe that my father jalan pun mcm goyang sangat2, so fragile that even kalo jentik sikit pun boleh tumbang dah. seriously, i'm not exaggerating). I mean, last night he was just fine, driving to another kenduri held by a relative as well. But i dont know what went wrong, this morning he was not that good at all.. what i'm sure of is he wasnt miss his regular medication the previous night. This morning, all the joints (my father's) were aching badly , and my father can hardly walk...

At first, my sister suspected that he was infected by the new aedes disease, Chiku hape bende ntah...but after i brought my father to the general hospital, the doctor said that the disease takde laa mcm tu, however if after 3 days, the illlness become worse and if ade nmpk bintat2 merah2 kat kuli, then confirm laa bende chiku ntah hape ntah tu (hopefully tak..). And i asked the doctor if it's psoriatic arthritis, because my father has history of psoriasis..and from my reading, the disease could lead to joints inflammation.. then the doctor ckp tak jugak, and i was a little bit relief laa..tp still di selubungi misteri ...penyakit ape yg tetibe datang mcm tu aje, yer tak???

So, instead of going to the family gathering, we were heading to the general hospital laa kan....
pastu after dah balik rumah (at first, i thought that my father was going to be admitted[and we were ready to bring over some clothes and what not]- i mean, it would be good because in hospital there will be a lot of medical facilities and help in case anything happen-i'm not hoping that anything bad will happen, just to be prepared), i would run as fast as i could if i hear things fall to the floor to check on my father if he's ok, i would also run if i hear him "mengerang" to asking him if he needs anything, if i see him walking i will escort him from the back, to make sure where he's going do whatever he needs to do and escort him back to his room.. he wouldnt let me to "papah" him to his destination, so, escorting is what i could do to make sure he's ok .. it's frightening of the possibilities that could happen and i dont want to think about that at all.. all i know is that i'm extremely worried if anything happen to my father... i am just not ready... Ya Allah, please heal my father....


I dont know about how you would feel if your father suddenly tak terdaya nk jalan...but what i felt after twice seeing my father was so sick ( one, after he was having the bypass surgery, and this is the second time) oooppss..this is the third time, the second time was when he was down disebabkan oleh kayap kat kepala... i felt extremely worried and sedih jugak psl sumer orang pon tau, father figure ni once was orang yg paling kuat dlm family kite, one who suppose to protect our family at all time...suddenly i felt insecure, psychologically...bukan laa bermaksud die tak kuat nih i would be unprotected tapi insecure in terms of i'm not ready facing any loss... if you know what i mean... i dont know if i put it right in the exact words (sorry for any wrong interpretation), but that's how i feel... insecure..frightened..not ready...

so, now, i'm truly worried....please pray for my father.....

congratulation and jubilation ...nananannnannannannaa...

dearest en. blog...
i have been catching up with a friend of mine whom just got married last not more than 2 months ago, and saje2 je tanye if she has already get herself "double" now...and the answers, even though it is not confirmed by any medical pratitioner just yet..most probably positive..i really hope that it is true... both of them, i'm sure they are anxiously excited to become father-to-be and mother-to-be....kann???kan???? kan father-to-be kan??kannnnn???(you know who you are...hehe..jgn senyum2 kambing je...)

so, another friend of mine yg dah pregnant is Manj... thanks for letting us know the good news as soon as u find out....i'm very happy for both you and along ...send my regards to him ekkk...

owh, as for my hantaran, both mak and i have agreed to just leave it to the kedai bunga/barang hantaran to settle it next time we have to do it...susah kalo masing2 tangan kayu nih....nnt wat malu je ...org bagi cantik2,kite punye mcm haram kan...??

to my blog readers, i really need your opinion on the theme for my wedding next year (hopefully)...it is because while i search for my tudung and selendang for the engagement, i discovered a store that sells beautiful lace (suitable for wedding dress) at a very reasonable price. I already asked en. bf about it but, the thing that makes me more confused is when he said " ikut awak laa...awak pilih laa..." grrrrr.....rase nak geget je makhluk nih...kang org pilih kaler pink tau plak tanak.... owh... about the store i mentioned... the choice of laces there enough to make me rambang mate bagai nak gila...i mean, even if i jalan2 kat jakel ke, euromoda ke, alinas ke and what not, sometime found that eventhough the price of the lace in like very pricy (sometime up to RM 200 per METER)and it is not that beautiful actually... i have no idea what makes it soooooo mahal...in this store yg i just found out, most of the laces are beautiful....and the price is only RM 60 per METER and very beautiful...there is no need to tambah more labuci ke ape ke....it is already cantik lip lap lip lap....glamour i tell you.... so, now i would like to ask for your opinion, kaler ape yg korang rase cantik...??? i got so confused....
owh, and i forgot to tell you one thing....i bought a selendang..not really a selendang..(macam veil pun ade gak...) from that same shop, that is full with lip lap lip lap.....for only RM 45 only..i have surveyed for the same thing in shah alam...a simpler selendang with nothing much on it would cost me RM 105, and the less it could go is RM 95... And the veil that i bought was at first RM 60, and i try to make it less to RM 50...then come the treasurer (of kosh be gosh my mothe laa kan..) she could bargain it to RM 45... i was happy enough that i could get as cheap as RM 50 because in Shah Alam, it was RM 105... ( half price already or what....!!!).. salute to the treasurer laa kan..tabik spring...

enough of that...i am sleepy and i think i want to go to sleep now....
till then, take care y'all...

2 weeks away ...

to my dearest en. blog,
i am two weeks away from the event and i'm struggling to bring out my artistic touch for the dulang hantaran... alangkah indahnye jika ade miss g4 and manj around to help me out with this whole thing... yer kawan2...selama ni hantaran2 utk abg2 saye dan kakak2 saye kawen were under the responsibility of my 3rd sibling, whom now is in College Station, Texas.. utk pengetahuan semua, hanye tangan die je yg lembut dan creative dari kitorang sume...tangan gue?? hehehe...mcm haram...tangan kayu....

oh ye...perlu diberitau di sini..yang mengerje kan bende nih stakat ni ialah saye dan mak saye...saye rase tgn mak saye pon keras cam saye...dan saye pon tatau mane akak saye tu dapat talent tangan lembut sket.... musykil nih!!

setelah lebih kurang mengadap bende ntah hape2 nih dari pagi tadi, kami telah berjaya menggubah 2 barang,dan terase seperti kunun cam terer...tapi hehehe...segan nak tunjuk kat sini, nnt jipak tgk die misti gelak kan... hehehe..nnt laa dah siap sume gue letak laa... kalo tak nnt tak SEPRAISSSSS!!!!! kannn???

ok lah, mak saye telah berbuih mulut memanggil saye utk makan nasik...so, saye pon lapa ni..tak brekfes lagi....bau goreng telur ni sungguh menggoda jiwa saye ...till then.... saye gi makan dulu... nanti saye sambung lagi ye!!

OMG!! i've been tagged

hahaha...baru je stalking adib..igtkan die tak tau..rupe2nye tau laa pulak...tak semena2 je lepas die buang mase dgn survey tuh, terdapat satu ayat "ps: Peed sile buat..."
so, without further a due, here goes....

1.If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
last time i was frustrated...now, i guess i could just be cooolllll...

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
I wanted to have the purrfect life.....

3.Whose butt would you like to kick?
right at this moment, en.bf

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
I'd buy mansions, hybrid car, and make some investment...with the dividend that i'd get, i'll go travelling around the globe.

5. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend??
hmmmm??

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
haha...i'd go for the second one...but with some amendment, being loved by EVERYONE...(tamak kasih sayang sket)

7. Are you gorgeous?
absolutely gorjes....hahaha(perasan laa plak kan)

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
tiru cam adib....(still secretly like that person, who cares its not that im going to tell people , i like them)

9. What do you pray each day for your loved one?
may they live happily everafter here and hereafter, amin.

10. What takes you down the fastest?
some unthoughtful words...

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
most probably i'll put on more weight...and still be happy about it

12. What do you really want at the moment of responding to this tag?
sleep and talk to en. bf(eventhough i just feeling like kicking his butt)

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
sengal ...mahap ye adib..(tapi baik atii...)

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
still lazing on the bed for like another 30 minutes

16. What’s the character must have in your partner?
is???not are??? ade banyakkkkk...

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
tak tau....most probably someone else other than the two fellas

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
forgive= yes, forget= that depends on how big is the mistake...kalo takat curik pemadam pensel, abaikan je laa...

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
being complicated

20. Would you leave your family behind just to chase your dreams?
ntah...i dont think so, i think i'm nobody without them...


ok...now i wanted to tag....
1.suria
2. yda
3. sumer orang yg bace...hahhaha

daaa...nak tido....

a year older? definitely no......

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This entry is meant to record the date in my blog....
Happy 15th Birthday to me....
Happy Anniversary to both my mother n my father...

another year is passing by...but my age remains the same....
i love being 15....hehheheh

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ps: this entry was supposedly published on 11/11/2008, 11:11 a.m.
but unfortunately, i realized that my blog's time zone was GMT -800 (pacific time) ...the moment i realized that, the date was already passed by... DAMN!!!

btw: i'd like to thank these people who have wished me today... thanks for being such a thoughtful person(s)..love u guys for that...

waida, kaklong, alams, saksik, kude, nor, kakngah, zara, hanan, umar,husna, hasan, husin, g4,lyd, cik siti norazim, darlie, suzen, shi2, didot, ika, and not forgotten, my beloved en.bf thanks for the treats yesterday... i love you very much..muah2...owh, i love him.....angau2 plak dah...hehehhe

Monsoon Cup!!!

yer kawan2, i am well aware that the topic is not really the topic for this particular entry. In the previous entry, I was moody and in this entry, I AM EXTREMELY HAPPYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAYYYYYY!!!!

Want to know what makes me this happy???? My assignments are finally DONE!!! at last... I am looking forward times like this every semester... i know you understand the relief that i am feeling right now... that means i can now really mengular...OH NO!! I am excited to start doing the preparation ... YEAYYY!!!

Tomorrow, i'll be sending these two assignments that have made my life hell on earth 3 days ago(oh well dear friends, we are all the ultimate procrastinator, aren't we??>> and g4, thanks for the quotes from ellen degeneres on your blog and also for your philosophy, i truly appreciate it!!)...and now I'm free... And what's more??? I'm not going to have to think and worrying about any assignments anymore on my birthday on tuesday... YEAYYY!!!

I dont care about the contents of my assignments hahaha...all i did was blasah aje..asal siap...yang penting i happy giler nih...baru laa bleh tido dgn aman sekali!!! YEAYYYY!!!

Sumer paragraph pun ade YEAYYYYY!!! YEAYYY!!!!

OWH I AM SO HAPPY!!!!YEAYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And i think i will listen to Frank Sinatra after this posting this entry.....
did i mention i like the part that says

" Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way."

Yeay!!!

Reflection....

i dont know where to start from but this entry will be more about my disappointment towards myself..

many of my friends might have notice that i have high level of anxiety attack (since forever).. i think it wa obviously seen especially when i had to give presentation in front of other people ( i.e. during my micro/macro teaching in the undergrad's years.. if you still remember the moment that i have to do microteaching for MTW class...that was truly embarassing..) My lesson plans would be really beautiful in terms of the flow of the lessons, however, i usually failed when i have to present it to the class.. Some of you might have notice, and the rest may not...

And due to the above matter, it affects my fluency and language use during the interview or presentations.. I dont know how to rectify that weaknesses of mine. During the interview, my grammar went all over the place, me myself notice that BUT... i cannot constantly correcting myself and it would be really awkward... Also, due to the problems, i dont think i have sufficient self confidence whenever i have to attend any interviews.. even thoufgh i have experienced it before, the moment i stepped into the room, only God knows how nervous I'd be ... To tell you the truth of how bad my anxiety level are, the day i attended that Mara interview, i could not sleep at all the night before... my heart was pumping too fast like it was about to blow up any minute, with no familiar faces around me during the interview, unlike the previous interview i had last semester, at least there were ceda and ira...

One of my friends said that i was the only one who is thinking the way i'm thinking right now... but how can i be sure about that?? Or she just didnt want to hurt my feelings and said all the nice things about me in front of me, and keeping me live in denial?? i dont know....she might be honest and she might be not...( for the statement only...deep down, i believe that she is an honest person)

So now the main question is, am i qualified to hold the degree i'm holding right now??? I am so damn afraid to answer that question...

wish me luck!

today i'm gonna have 1 DG41's interview and the day after tomorrow i'll be having another DH41 interview...
now already 4.34 in the morning and i still couldnt sleep...sheeshhhh....

wish me luck ok!! muahhh!!

I did it my way....(and a literature lesson)

yes my friend, today i'm feeling a little bit oldies....listen to the oldies ...and slow songs...my song collection in my Mr. V mostly are oldies...although not that suria's kind of oldies...but quite old already laa ...90's pun old gak laa....some are traditional songs (i.e. Ayam den lapeh) . And mind you, i have 2 versions of Ayam den Lapeh.. one sung by Kak Nita(sengaukan sket..) and another one by Mastura(from Ally Noor and Mastura...) not that popular laa compared to the anita sarawak's version... but what i like about the song is the language and meaning...It sort of brings me back to the days when we have to read between the lines for our Literature classes... Those days, the days when we were in Mdm Rosalind's classes, Miss J's classes (Madame now...) and also Sir Udhaya in his Shakespeare classes...Those were the days.... I really miss those days we left behind.... Now that i'm taking subjects like Project Management (tough like ****), i appreciate more Literature classes we had during undergrad's years... no right or wrong answers.. everything under the sun could be right ...but as i wrote earlier...those were the dayss... But frankly, like Project Management, it should be that hard but what we students could do??the subject should be interesting....but the lecturerr....argghhh!!! now that i've took the exam, i realized that i might not perform in this paper... Ya Allah, please help me....
As i told some of you, sometimes i just felt like giving up..but then i remembered this is all my choice... And after all the sacrifice; financial wise, time wise, storage wise(inside my brain) and everything else; i am not going to choose to be a loser...and times like this i'd like to listen to Frank Sinatra's "My Way".... In a way, this song kind of give me some motivation to go on, apart of giving calls to my friends....

My Way by Frank Sinatra
And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, I'll say it clear,
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain.

I've lived a life thats full.
I've traveled each and every highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, I've had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried.
I've had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!

And i would also like to put here the lyrics for Ayam Den Lapeh, not Anita Sarawak's Version but Mastura's...so to those who would have lots of free time can try to interpret and analyse the song... Remember!! No right or wrong answers...that's the beautiful part of Literature...

Ayam Den Lapeh

Luruihlah jalan Payakumbuah
Babelok jalan Kayu Jati
Dima ati indak karusuah
Ayam den lapeh ai ai… ayam den lapeh

Mandaki jalan Pandaisikek
Manuru jalan ka Biaro
Di ma ati indak kamaupek
Awak takicuah ai ai… ayam den lapeh

Sikucapang sikucapeh
Saikua tabang saikua lapeh
Tabanglah juo nan karimbo
Oilah malang juo

Pagaruyuang Batusangka
Tampek bajalan urang baso
Duduak tamanuang tiok sabanta
Oi takana juo ai ai… ayam den lapeh

Den sangko lamang nasi tuai
Kironyo tatumpah kuah gulai
Awak ka pasa alah usai
Oi lah malang denai

O hoi … ayam den lapeh

but on second thought, i might just as well give u the translation right away.... the translation is taken from Kak Nisah's website, the cousin i told u in the previous entry whom i thought tried to "serkap jarang-ed" me last deepavali....but she's the wife laa :D....hehehe...

Luruslah jalan Payakumbuh (nama tempat)
Berliku jalan Kayu Jati (nama tempat)
Bagaimana hati tidak rusuh (susah hati)
Ayamku terlepas. (secara tersirat bermaksud, hajat yang tidak kesampaian)

Mendaki jalan Pandaisikek (jalan ke tempat bernama Pandaisikek itu curam/mendaki)
Bersimpang siur jalan ke Biaro (juga nama tempat)
Bagaimana hati tidak berkata
Aku tertipu

Sikucapang sikucapeh *(semua usaha yg dah dibuat berantakan)
Seekor terbang, seekor terlepas
Terbanglah ke hutan rimba
oh, malang sekali

Pagaruyung Batusangkar (kedua-duanya nama tempat)
Tempat berjalan orang baso **(Orang baso means orang besar aka bangsawan)
Sekejap-sekejap duduk termenung
Oi terkenang juga ai ai… ayamku terlepas (buruk pulak bunyi terjemahan ini :-) )

Kusangka nasi tuai itu lemang
Rupanya nasi tertumpah kuah gulai
Saya ke pasar, tapi pasar dah tutup/habis ***(adalah satu usaha yg sia2 aje)
oh, malanglah saya.

ayam ku terlepas

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Kusangka nasi tuai itu lemang( menurut mak saye, nasik tuai tu mungkin juge adalah pulut kuning kottt...sebabnye adlh didlm line berikutnya)
Rupanya nasi tertumpah kuah gulai
Saya ke pasar, tapi pasar dah tutup/habis
oh, malanglah saya.

and according to another reading that i did, this song was written by a guy, in which the chicken in this song represent 2 women he was wooing(tak patut btol kan??ade ke kite nih di umpamakan mcm ayam..isk isk isk...sedih )... Unfortunately, due to his greediness, he did not manage to get any of the girls (padan muke laa kan??) tamak tu!! nak ngurat skali dua org....tuh yg die sampai terduduk termenung memikirkan "ayam-ayam"nye terlepas.... korang agak2 macho ke org yg menulis lagu nih ??hensem kah die???(kalo btol laa begitu ceritanye, yg die skali nak ngurat 2 orang skali...)...ok laa kanak2, saye berangkat dulu ye!!

satu iklan di hari Deepavali..

owh yes.... my sister has completed her make up courses at xpressionmaster make-up academy and officially has become a professional make up artist. And now she started to accept bookings to do make ups for a lot of events as her part time job. to view her "work", kindly click the make-up artist . Owh yes, she also took courses to do hair as well. So, the service she offered:

a) make-up
- Bridal
-creative evening
-face painting
-dinner
- photoshoots
-commercials

b) hair do.

for more information, dont hesitate to contact her ... alritey peepss....


p/s: Happy Deepavali

Of Exam and Assignments...

damnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!! i've wrote an entry but it's lost!!! DAMNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Word of the day : Buffoon

hello my friends.. sorry for not updating this blog of mine for quite sometime... It's not too late for me to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...I tried to sms everyone of hari raya sms..but i'm not sure if it reaches u guys...because u know that there was no delivery reports sent back to me that day...

Thanks to Miss G4 for visiting me last weekend, but i'm truly sorry that i couldnt spend time with you during the day time, n that's why i dragged her berjimba2 during the night until 3 a.m....Arghhh...shoot!!! No pics taken during the visit...kalo tak buleh jugak letak kat sini...kasik bebudak nih rase nak melawat aku di lain kali....hahahaha...cemane laa buleh lupe...
and that brings back to the reason why i could not find sometime to blog...i am currently too busy with my felt-like-never-ending-assignment!! and again, thanks to g4 for visiting and meriangkan jiwa gue yg kusut masai ni....

Oh yess...about the title of this entry... i had encountered with the word yesterday while having my dinner with my groupmate,after we did our presentation last night and escape from the class after maghrib...while waiting for the food to be served, we chatted about everything under the sun..including love and classes and everything else... and the word came about when we were discussing about relationship..and this friend of mine is currently in a relationship with an international citizen (is that the word?? i dont want to use the word foreigner...seems like unfriendly a bit) and his first language is French.. and we were talking about malaysian men in general and their choice of girl.. sorry for malaysian men who happen to come accross my blog...this was just the gist of girl talk we had..the main topic was "What the hell is wrong with our society???" not purposely malay men.. Sorry i could not remember the whole conversation...

Me: Owh, i have a friend who are now married to an indian..and she told me that eventhough now that they were married, ppl still sort of "pandang kerek" at her...especially when they are in public...

Miss Friend: That's why..These ppl will have some kind of "like there are no other men" look at me also.. My bf ask me why i can accept someone other than of my race to be my bf, and i said the malay men wouldnt want me, they wont look at me.... they will be looking for someone who is petite, fair, skinny, and in terms of education and career, they want somebody of slightly lower education than them... look at me, i have none of them... i am not fair, i am a big size(note: she's not fat, only big size, ok! voluptious, yes...), i have a successful career, and now i'm doing my master...none of them will come close..

Me: hmmm..tp tu laa diorang nih...sometime women have to be a bit secretive about that.... just like Ira, bla bla bla ..(the content could not be revealed)

Miss Friend: You know what Mr.Bf said??

Me: What??

Miss Friend: He said that they are buffoons...i'm not sure the spelling

Me: (Due to lack of reading, although i'm a tesl grad, i have to ask her the meaning...the word sounds interesting) Kak...hehehe...what is buffoons???i've never heard of it...name je from tesl (me being honest)...

Miss Friend: Haha..i asked the same question too to Mr. Bf....and you know what was his answer??

Me: (start laughing..) what???

Miss Friend: He said buffoons means the highest level of stupidity....thousands and thousands time more than just stupid...

Me: wow..i loike!!!! i like the word....

yeayy.. new word learned!! i really like the sound...it sounds polite and cute, but the meaning...OMG...i loikeeee... i will start using this word from now on...hahahahahaa
enclosed is the meaning i copy pasted from

1)Online Merriam Webster Dictionary : a gross and usually ill-educated or stupid person

My new bundle of joy...the answer to my proposal...

When u want it the most, there's no easy way out...
when u're ready to go but u're heart left in doubt...
don't give up on your faith...love comes to those who believed it..
and that's the way it is....

(celine dion-that's the way it is)

Introducing my secondary metrosexual boyfriend....Mr. V.... apart from my primary bf en. lokman rayap...



thanks to saksik jadik org tukang beli....



I never thought i'd have it....thanks to the Treasurer.... hik hik hik.... I love u.... muah2...

reminicense: Nsync

Today i have the chance to watch the video clips i copied from opie, most of them are nsync and some hindi songs... Suddenly i remember how it feels like when i was i little younger (not that i'm any older ..hehe..still young as always)

so kirenye saye teringat sewaktu di maktab dlu2...zaman2 skolah, i was a big fan of NSync...kaset sume bli tauu...original lagik...zaman tuh laa kan...sume kaset lagik ( walaupun kat skolah diharamkan bwk walkman...dan walkman gue udah dirampas) tp kaset ttp beli...if i were to compare both nsync and bsb..i like nsync better laa..dunno why.. dah laa tuh, minat kat Chris kirkpatrick tu plak tuh, which my sister didnt really like laa...die kate budak gigi kotoll...tapi sbnr nye die pakai braces,so nmpk cam kotol laa kot tp tak kotolll....saye ske die sbb die cam gile2 yg best...cam rayap!!!

pastu saye pon start la browse kat youtube lagu2 si budak nsync nih....especially lion sleeps tonite...psl si chris nih yg lead...gedik jugak saye nih ye....

kesimpulan nye...saye rase mude ..kelihatan mude...jadik mude ...huhuhuh

arahan dari warden asrama...

yer..time kasih en jeepsy, warden yang digeruni seluruh alam kerana telah memberi hw yg saye suke...nih celah gigi je nih...pejam mate pun aku boleh buat...har har harun salim bachik (sian die, tak berkenaan pun, name die jadi mangsa..harap maaf kalo terbace yer!) So here goes a few facts about me...

The rules:~ Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.



~ Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.~ Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.~ Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog..



fact #1: i am the slowest "eater" in the world... i eat at the velocity of 1 hour/meal (maybe u might think that i'm exaggerating but i do !(",) ) . Usually, i am the last person to finish eating laa..tak caye??try laa tanye sape2 ...i tried to eat a bit faster, but my sister kate " buruk laa org pompuan makan "polok-polok" camtuh!!"

*vocab of the day

- polok-polok = makanan dlm mulut tak abes lagi/blom telan dah nak suap lagi, oleh itu mulut penuh..dan itu adalah tak semenggah ok!!





fact #2: i am sensitip at times...takleh org terslh ckp/tone sket dah terase....saye jugak adlh seorang makhluk yg cepat emo ok!!!



fact #3: i like my birthday date( 11 November) very much... i feel very lucky...mcm ade ong! walaupun sbnrnye tade pun hahahaha.....



fact #4: until the moment of doing this tag, i believe that all my wishes all my entire life came true. it's just a matter of lambat atau cepat je...alhamdulillahh... lately i received a new laptop. i remember that i once wish to have it...and now i really do owned it... Allah listens to my wish..



fact #5:i like doing the master degree that i'm doing now, it's just i dont like the homeworks that come together with it...



fact #6: maybe it's because i'm the youngest in the family makes me a bit childish in certain things. I acted in such behaviour to those who are very2 significant in my life only i.e: immediate family members and en.bf ...but however it seems that en. bf could not handle me well when i started to act like one...tp nk buat mcmane kan??kalau dh tak rase nk lyn...fine!! However my friends...u dont get to see me acted that way...not that you were not significant in my life, you are very significant in my life too..but from different angle laaa kire nye....



fact #7: (the darkest of all) i have been on-and-off with my en.bf for thousands of times, and yerp...i'm still with the same guy. we fought over small2 things a lot n a few big things.. sometimes i wonder whether i'm with the right guy. kadang2, when i started to believe that i'm with the right guy and imagining smooth flowing in the relationship, another fight comes along...and it hurts.... this afternoon i started to believe, but tonite ...as usual..a fight came along...too soon ekk??and this blog might be the next reason to fight about.....



i wanna tag:

1. huwaida jugak

2. abby jugak

3. cyedaaaa jugak

4. akeji formerly known as mr ajai

5. ieda kotttt, psl mmg tak ramai rs nye yg view blog aku melainkan org2 yg disebutkan ....

6. diri saye sendiri....

7. dan diri mereka yg lain yg sedang membaca tag ini....

Persamaan alzeebra...ai loike...

Thanks to opi... i want to adopt her alzeebra equation and make it my theme for this fasting month...

"Puasa+[Assignment]2 = [Rayax5] - [Assignment]2= Balik Kampung + Raya+Yieehhaaaax10!! !!!"

yeayyyy...ganbatte!!
i'm loving it!!

otak saye jammed...ade roti??

ok lah...officially i am eventually becoming an owl. i am more comfortable to work during the night and sleep during the day... maksudnye lps nih susah laa nk pegi ngedate kan???isk isk isk... tp suasane yg senyap dan sunyi ni sungguh condusive for me to sit down minding my own business..nothing can disturb me now...yeayyy... opi laa yg jadik peneman saye membuat keje umh... mekasih ye cik opi...atau kopi..atau popi.... (jgn marah opi)...

ok laa tu je ...saye nk smbg wat keje....

oh sblm tuh sy nk bgtau siang tadi saye tlh berjaye tido dari lps subuh sehingga pukul 4 ptg..to be exact, 430 ptg...dengan gangguan pada pukul 12 tghari oleh kakak saye...memberitahu proposal air liur yang telah saya majukan kepada emak saye telah diluluskan....tapi implementation die blom tau bile lagi.... yeayyy!!!

ok lah..nk wat keje...babai en. blog...
miss nugget take off dulu yer.... muah2
take care ye!! jgn nakal2, jgn ngorat2 org...

It's a hectic month ..what should i say...

i dunno how to appropriately start this entry...but who cares??

(1)Lately I am so depressed eventhough in the previous posts i kind of happy with the cancellation of 2 classes weekly during this fasting month. However, the cancellation comes together with a lot of assignments to compensate the free time he has given. Not only for his classes but the other lecturers also play generous to provide us with a lot of other assignments to do.

(2) The computer that i used to use to do my assignments has started to give me a lot of problem recently and at the end of the day i get too frustrated to do any assignment at all.

(3) Due to the problem, my assignments have been accumulated to the phase where i get sooooo depressed.

(4) Maybe due to these problem i am not able to get my sleep.

(5) And i get cranky... easily pissed off

(6) And my boyfriend accusing me that i "have somebody else"

(7) and i get more cranky

(8) and i am soo pissed of with the accusation...

(9) I changed my password againn!!

(10) I would love to list down the assignment that I have....

1. Project Management-Presentation1(done)+write up(80%).......tomorrow
   
2. Project Management- report review presentation(done)+write up......tomorrow
3. Project Management- case study (group work)......after raye
   
4. Info Storage n Retrieval- redo vc presentation ......next saturday
   
5. Info Storage n Retrieval- case study ..........the saturday after nxt saturday
   
6. System Analysis- Interview with System Analyst + Write up .........after raye
   
7. System Analysis- System Development+ Case study.......after raye
   
8. Competitive Intelligence- company profiling ......after raye
9. Competitive Intelligence- case study...after raye
10. Competitive intelligence - article review presentation......after raye

(11) cemane haku tak emo?????? jawabbbb???

huwaaaaa......

tujuh bende aje.....

Tonite was the first time i heard this song words by words, and i kind of like the song...it's catchy and really reflect how a girl would feel when they first broken up with someone... where they trying so hard to find things to hate about their previous ex(es)...tp relax laa...trust me it's not the end of the world...soon enough, u will learn to love more cautiously..(is that the word?? i cant find a more suitable one..), where u kind of make a distance so that u wont get hurt like the first time round... so here goes....

7 bende oleh miley cyrus

I probably shouldn't say this, but at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous relationship we shared
It was awesome, but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care

And now we're standing in the rain,
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear, my dear
The 7 things I hate about you
The 7 things I hate about you
Oh, you

Your vain, your games, your insecure
You love me, you like her (???)
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them just know it hurts
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

I's awkward and silent as I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now is your sincere apology
When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it, lets be clear

Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here
The 7 things I hate about you

Your vain, your games, your insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them just know it hurts
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things that would take to long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like
The 7 things I like about you

Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined everything's alright
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you

You dooooo
Oooooooohhhhhh!
Oooooooohhhhhh!
Oooooooohhhhhh!
Oooooooohhhhhh!

beras ape si tipah tu pakai???

yer...tajuk di atas tiada kene mengena dgn yg hidup atau yg telah meninggal dunia...skang ni sy dlm proses mencari project report tapi malangnye, sy tak dpt lagi mencari report yg bakal memuaskan ati lecturer saye yg itu...sungguh tension..ari senin nih dah nk kne present..ape yg sy nk present nih nnt...

hmm, ptg nih nk buke mkn ape yer??arinih sy ade ngedate akak sy, dan juge mlm besok...ape laa nk di ketukkan kakak saye nih ye???hmmm...mari berfikir seketikaa...

btw, last week 2 kawan sy dtg berchoti2 malaysia di rumah saye...yda and lyd...mekasih ler dtg, tp rumah sy bersepah..jgn mara aa...harap2 jgn laa serik dtg umh sy lagi yer....

akhir kate ...sy takut laa dgn hw sy nih.....

tora kembali lagiii....

mintak maaf yer kawan2....mintak maaf yer encik blog...

lame dah saye tak menghapdet blog ni kan??? saye sungguh bz sejak akhir2 ni...bz dgn homework..bz dgn bergaduh dan berbaik dgn en.bf saye...dan bermacam2 lagi...lagipon haritu saye dah terminate encik streamyx dirumah saye, dan menggantikannye dgn maxis broadband...
walaupun pada mulanye connection maxis broadband adalah seperti hampeh, namun kini ia sudah laju seperti halilintar..terima kasih maxis kerana mengambil tindakan keatas segala komplen2 saye yang berbakul2 tu....

berbalik kepada kebizian saye membuat homework....bizi tu mmg bizi..tp yg peliknye tak siap2...hampagasssss!!!!!sakit atiiiiiiiii.....!!!!!!!pastu yang paling di benci...setiap hw tuh misti lebih dr 10 pages..benciii!!!!ahh..mls nk pk...

yg penting misti ramai jeles dgn kami punye klas pada bulan pose nih...klas yg utk ari rabu ngn kamis tu telah di takde kan...dan klas ari selase tu akan di buat pade ari sabtu kul 2 ptg smpi 6. hanye klas ari senin je yg masih di jalankan seperti dlm jadual.....

so,most of the time, saye akan berada di rumah..yeayyy!!tp satu keburukannye ialah..kat rumah saye akan menjadi amat malas utk wat keje ....apekahhH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tolonnnn......

more pics???

for more pictures taken during the convocation, visit my album in facebook...it will soon be updated when as soon as i get other pictures from my sister.

happy ~~!!

last saturday was one of the most memorable days in my life... yes, it was my graduation a.k.a. my convocation day...until this moment, i wasnt really sure and trying to understand why i felt sooo nervous that day...because it wasnt like i have to perform in front of crowds...i just need to naik pentas and received the scroll (eventhough it was just a reminder to return the robes), and walk back to my seat...the feeling is like having stage fright....like there were butterflies in my stomach..i was too emotional that day...tapi takpe laaa..

until today, i received 3 bouquets of flowers including 2 balloons...2 of them are roses and the other one is lilies...sangat wangi...dan sangat hepi.... the lilies are about to dry but the roses are still fresh laa..especially the one i just received today... mase dpt munge tu...hati pun berbunge2 skali...tapi kan ...sayang laa bunge2 tu kalo layu cam tuh aje...therefore, saye telah terfikir utk melakukan sesuatu keatas munge2 tersebut... nak tau ???hehehehee....saye nak buat mandi bunge laaa..tak payah pegi spa nak mandi2 bunge..buat sendiri pakai bunge convocation.... kreatif dan jimat bukan??? yer..besok pagi ialah hari yg telah saye decide utk mandi bunge convo...dgn harapan taun depan cepat2 la convo lagi skali....ameeeennnnn... and about the balloons, i put it in my rooms...hepi bile tgk balloons tu terbang dgn riang dan gembira....lalu detiap kali saye lalu berdekatan dgn balloons tersebut, saye akan kiss balloons tersebut...sungguh hepi!!









lagi gamba2 convo berada di facebook, dan selebihnye dlm camera akak saye....
walau bagaimanapun, hari tersebut juga terdapat peristiwa yang sedikit sedih, setelah saye bermuhasabah diri di dalam dewan seri budiman tersebut.... tetapi saye tidak lah terlalu sedih berkenaan hal tersebut....

P/S: thanks alam dan manusia yang rayap for the flower delivery

it's tojie's wedding....

today, i went to tojie's ( farah shahana's) wedding in Klang...thank you for the invite... It was such a wonderful day because i could jumpak2 kembali dgn kwn2 mase asasi... especially pero, am dan jugak ady...other than that, ade jugak farraliza, sorang budak yang saye ske tgk muke die dulu.. yg juge merupakan sorang student kepade kakak saye... tapi kawan2...dont get me wrong..saye bukan lesssssss yer...walaupun suria (bukan name sebenar) adlh teman dua ranjang gue... so, without anymore sok sek- sok sek, i'll just give you the pictures laa kan, let them speak for themselves...


ini adalah saye dan pero, yang menjadik mem besar dlm kete Persona milik Am dan Hisyam Francis ....




masih lagi mem-mem besar, di ambil oleh Puan Am a.k.a Mrs Francis

saye tiade dlm gambar kerana mengambil gambar...
from left: Pero, Puan Am, Puan Ady wannabe (insyallah February next year)



ini adlh budak2 asasi yang ade tadik.....
the back benchers (bench kerr??) from left: Am (Ameerah Amrudin), Miss Nugget, Ady (Adnyn Muhanifa), Farraliza, Pero (Aisyah Fairuz)



with the king and queen of the day : Hafizi and Tojie (you both look good together.. :D so sweet)

oh yer kawan2, pada pagi tersebut...lepas bangun pagi saye pun talipon pero tapi die tak angkat pasal talipon kat atas, die takut nak naik atas umh am sensorang....so saye pon tipon am...

kemudian, saye mandi2 siap2...tapi tak mekap lagi...terus gi umh am...best borak2...pastu tunggu pero siap mandi dan baru mekap2....lalu lps mekap kami pon pegi ke umh pengantin menaiki kete am..pegi 1 kete je...tak jem...

kat sane kami jumpe dgn ady dan ramai lagik...owh ...ade lagi gambar...jap eh saye letak lagi... hihihihi.....





ady and fiance




from left: pero, ady, miss nugget,( hopefully am little one :D) and mommy to-be Am



OK. tu je gambar yang ade ....that's all folk!!

PS: nnti graduation pic and maybe manj's wedding plak coming soon.....

gambarajah tikus makmal yang kiut....hahahaha

well...setelah saye berjaye kembali ke shah alam dan mendapat kelajuan internet bagai halilintar...lalu saye pun terus teringat utk mengupload gambarajah yang telah saye janji kan aritu....



for more pictures...sile laa gi berjalan2 di friendster saye ...ade kat photo album...
all rise sumer....tengkiuk!!

tikus makmal....

for a few days, i have been a very loyal and good lab rat to my sister..hahaha....
i am very happy to be given a make over .... hahaha..ske2... saye suke make up2...ske sangattt....

sile lihat gambarajah yang di berikan...walaupun gambar agak hayam sikit....al maklum laaa tangan menggigil sket amik gambar...dah lame tak kne bedung.... (tapi it gives the impact macam di alam mimpi sket kann...hahaha...nk sedap kan hati sendiri )hahahahah ..ai loike....


aihhh...terkuciwa laa beta...pasal takleh nk upload..connection di sini adlh sgt poor utk maxis broadband....takpe laa..nanti kan kemunculan nye sebaik sahaje saye mendapat connection sepantas halilintar nanti yer!!! jangan lupe yer kawan2....

ps: to rocher yang nak kawen 1 jun nih...slamat pengantin baru...tak dpt nk g psl saye konvo laa pada hari sebelum nye....

what a great feeling....

wahh....what a feeling ekk?? to be appreciated by your own student.... i received 1 wish, from my former student during the practicum...her name is nur syahirah...a petite, cute, yet a very hardworking student. she was in 2 Amal last year and i believe that she stays in Amal this year (that is the best class of the whole bunch). i thought i wasnt a teacher yet, but after received the wish on Friday evening from only 1 student, it was enough to convince myself that i am still a teacher, at least to her..

after receiving sms from my student, saye pon sms kat cikgu2 saye yg saye ade nombor diorang...hopefully they still remember me and happy to receive the sms.

so...i've been neglecting this blog for a few days because i was in terengganu for 2 days (1 night only). my sister wanted to borrow my car and therefore she invited me to accompany her to kertih (rantau petronas to be exact..). friday morning we began the journey from kl. it took us almost 4 hours driving( non-stop)..but i was happy because she's done the driving, and i was just the co-driver. driving an AMT savvy, it used only half tank of the petrol(full tank =rm 50 -rm 53). however, the tolls we had to pay (actually, she had to pay..) were RM 5+ RM3 +RM 21 = RM 29 total. we were staying in a resort in kijal, and the next morning, she had a job to be done in e-learning center @petronas office which located in rantau petronas. i had to wake up early to follow her to the centre.(that is like a challenge to me because at home, i usually wake up at 12 or 1230...hahahaha...) she gave me to choose whether to stay in the hotel or follow her...and i choose to follow...hahaha biase laa, i mmg suke menyibuk sket kannn....

I was really happy to be away from home for at least 1 week..(2 days in tganu..)the rest of the days until the end of the week, i'll be staying at her apartment somewhere in kl. like today, she went out as early as 4 a.m. and she left me at home and i slept until 12 as usual...and after i took my bath, i went down to find something to eat at the mini market downstairs and after that ... i have done a movie marathon.....syiok nye saye..... hepii... but now i'm out of dvd to watch...takpe laa tgk balik cite yg dh tgk sampai muntah....

ape2 pun yg penting kite hepi kannn????

happy DG 41's day...

happy teacher's day everybody(in advance)... most of my TESL friends my wish goes to you..best laa korang sumer, udah jadik career women dong!!<<{tak berniat utk mendiskriminasi kaum adam...} tambah2 si Suria (bukan nama sebenar), kemain lagik ko yer....joli raye hindi lagi...pegi meeting bukan main jauh..sampai Putrajaya lagik tuh .. pasal SUKMA lagik tuh.. kelllaasssss nyah ...bangge mak, nyah...jgn memain tau, nnti suria (bukan name sebenar) tu duk kat Shangri-La lagik...tu yang paling kelassss tu nyahhhh..... nnti kalo anda iaitu suria ( bukan nama sebenar) terbace post mak nih nyah....jangan lupe kat mak, nyahhh.. yer laa dah duk di atas bukit, di tengah2 putrajaya......menikmati pemandangan indah seantero putrajaya tuh...igt2 ler kat mak yer nyahh... itu baru ko jadik cikgu skolah tuh nyah..walau pun blom komprem lagi, tp mmg kelass nyah....itu blom lagi kalo ko gi jadik lecturer kat UMT (bukan nama universiti sebenar) tuh lagi nyahhhhh....takpe laa, udah2 laa cite pasal si Suria (bukan nama sebenar ) tuh....

saye sungguh berase sedih sekali kerana saya tidak menyambut hari DG 41 ni...ini bermakne, saye tidak akan dapat hadiah yang banyak bertimbun seperti sewaktu saye abes practicum dulu...sedih... walau ape pun saye pasrah atas ketentuan ini...mungkin juge belum rezeki utk dpt hadiah yg banyak dan bertimbun2....tunggu laaa kalo saye kawen ..misti ade banyak kann>??? (banyak ker...???ade ke org nak bagi???)

yer kawan2...saye skang nih sedang melawan penyakit..dan saye tak sihat...sebenarnye saye demam....baru je demam tuh datang..aritu ok je...smlm br start..tu sbb saye tak tulis blog dah lame..saye sungguh letih...blood pressure saye pon turun 86/60 dan doktor yg merawat saye kate itu adalah kritikal.....doa kan saye cpt sembuh yer kawan2...ok lah...saye nk tido jap lagi...daaaaaaa

i miss my friendss...

to tell the truth i really miss my friends... i mean all my friends... from muadzam, asasi and also my tesl friends...especially yesterday after the thing in putrajaya...i realized that i need a friend to talk to..so i called some of them whom are free at that moment..the victims were manja , jeepers creepers, and suzen.. since suzen was free that time and about to go out looking for some stuff with warine, i joined them. at least, being around my friends would make me put all the things that were bothering me aside..for a while, i wasnt thinking about it..
later that evening, i called lyd and suria...and then i went to sleep because that is one of the way for me to let go all of my emotional distress. however, lately it didnt work for me anymore. after i woke up, the discontentment within myself was still there. Sometimes, i feel like i'm no good at all.
have you ever feeling so down that you hated yourself too much like hell?? that was what i felt yesterday.. i felt that i'm no good and i dont have any goal in my life. i felt useless. what's worst was when i dont know what whas the purpose i'm even here?? sometimes i just dont know who am i. I dont even know how to describe myself. I was once being asked by my sister with just a simple question..very simple that it hurts because i just dont know how to answer, where to start, and what should i include in the answer to make it perfectly right...she's given me 1 year for me to find out the answer. The time is up already and i still dont have the answer. not that she comes back for an answer but, i'm just not satisfied with myself that i still do not have the answer. The simple question i'm talking about is "Who are you?", but the answer should not relate you to anybody such as "i'm someone's daughter, someone's gf, someone's wife etc...". It is just you as a person...
right now, i'm not settled yet ... i am still nobody, still fully dependent on my parents and sometime i just feel like crap. i just hope that i will find out who myself really are, and hopefully everything will just fall into its place.. i could just pray and cross my fingers, hoping for the very best.....
PS: please pray for me .. i really miss you guys...

Lariii...warden datang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

larii..incik warden dah nak tag orggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
1) i am a very stubborn person
2) my self esteem is fluctuating most of the time...one minute i have all the confidence the next minute it drops drastically
3) i can be very childish n very mature at times.(same with the warden..hehe..)
4) i am not creative at all...
5) my favourite chocolate is Beryl's Almond
6) at times i hate my life
7) i am a "slow-talker"... since forever.. sometimes it's hard to complete a story..

7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1) high expectation
2) being left alone in the middle of nowhere..n tade public transport kat situ langsung
3) my mother's high pitch
4) if i am surrounded by bad people around me..
5) if i was in the condition of the math prodigy
6) if i lose the ability to think rationally
7) if i wont have the chance to repent myself

7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT:
1) *1000 tahun*
2) *kenangan terindah*
3) *wont go home without u*
4) *tattoo*
5) *tak bisakah*
6) **
7) ** ( sorry..not into music)

7 “FIRST TIME” THINGS I EVER DID:
1) fly dari hostel...dgn yati n ina kott... 1998
2) ponteng puase dgn mendapat restu dari ayah ..1996(dan tak ganti2...mase tu blom wajib ganti lagi)
3) had a bf (bf ker???cam bodoh aje...terase buduh!!!), July 1st,2000
4) pegi sambut new year yg mcm buduh (nyesal pegi), 2004
5) naik flight.. September 1997
6) fix the door knob.. 2007
7) ade talipon.. 2000

7 PEOPLE I TAG:
1) s
2) a
3) p
4) e
5) 2
6) l
7) a

kalau anda tertekan angkat tangan....( saye!! saye!!)

i have no time to update the blog for the past few days because i was emotionally unstable (yesterday was such a drama in my life..but seriously, I am so stressed out rite now). However, I prefer not to write about that on the blog (hopefully) . Now, I would like to talk about forthcoming KPM interview on March 8th,2008.

After I missed the first interview (after a short period of consideration and also overslept), i received the second one, I see it as a second chance. And this time i decided to go for it. Here are some of the reasons why I reconsider the interview....

i) I want to be financially independent so that I have more autonomy to my own life, and have my own say on everything that I do... i can do whatever i wanted to do without having to ask from anybody for financial support.. now, at this point of my life, i depend 98% on my parents, 2% on my bf, and some extra emergency percent on my sister's account.. (mekafihhh maklam rayap yang gorjes!!).. and as the majority of the financial support are from my parents, whatever I do, I MUST INFORM them... and now that i stay at home for the semester break, i am short of money.. and i feel really really sad :( :(

ii) I wish I could stay away from home. For a few days, yes of course...but everyday?? oh no...i believe that you know what i mean.. at the very beginning u arrived, u are missed by everybody in the house..but after a while, not anymore. in my situation, when your siblings came home with their children, bibik and what not ..you are no more a special person in the house, terus turun kasta.. kene suruh buat itu laaa, ini laaa, masak laa.... i mean, they are my siblings, and that means this house is their house as well..pegi laa buat sume tu sendiri kan???buat ape plak gwe nak buat sume tuh utk depa??? i dont mind kalo buat same2 ke ape ke... tapi balik2 yang kene suruh tuh gwe..org2 lain tuh takde kne suruh pon..what makes me so irritated, when they are coming back, i dont even have my own room... even the bibiks have their room... lepas tu, ape2hal yg salah sume kite aje....orang2 yg lain tuh sume elok aje... ye laaa...org tuh sume dah kawen..dah ade anak... jarang balik umah, so sume tuh indah belake laa kan....kite ni dah duk umh...jadik laa tuan rumah diorang tetamu laa ape lagi ntah.... pendek kate dok umh ni bosan.. bosan...dan BOSAN..

iii) the third reason is somehow related to the previous reasons. now that i am at home, i am rarely go out to enjoy myself...let alone going out for date, nak gi kuar gi giant ke...nak kuar gi bank ke... pun ade org ikut...so, harapan utk gi tabung aji utk kuarkan savings adalah terbantut sama skali... dah tuh, sbb ade orang ikut, takkan laa kite nk ajak die pegi tgk wayang plak kan??maksudnye kne kuar secara bertujuan yang suci laa kan?? nak beli ape2 pun, kne bertujuan..no crap at all..yer tak kawan2?? apekah perasaan anda?? indah?? sape nak jadik anak bongsu???sape?????

iv) this one is also related to the previous ones... remember that i wrote about kne suruh2 in the second reason tuh??? i dont mind at all if they wanted to help the "guests" who come to our house, be my guest.. want to borrow the car??? pakai laa..it's not even mine yet( see?? i am not financially dependent at all..).. if you want to make any plan that includes me, inform me first... ask for my willingness BEFORE you plan... not AFTER.. and what's annoying me was, i was not being given appropriate choices..(a) It's either i go with them ( it is a 2-hour journey, and bukan highway) or (b) I'll wait for his significant other later in the afternoon to go there..either way i HAVE to go...and i DONT want to go... Because I am a stubborn person (i mean really stubborn).. I am so annoyed when people instructed me to do this and that... so, berbalik kepade cerita tadi, my tagline in helping people "kalo kite nak tolong orang,nak menyusahkan diri sendiri aje, fine..tpjgn sebab nak tolong org, kite menyusahkan orang lain jugak (yang belum tentu willing utk menyusahkan diri die utk org yang kite nak tlg)"... bukan tanak tolong, i did help sket2 ape.. die nak pinjam kete, amik laa...the previous night, i slept with the sons, and both puked on the bed sheet at two different occurrences,late night before tido and early morning, buatkan susu, pastu muntah atas baju & the bed sheet..i was not complaining at all about that..tuh pun kire tolong jugak kan..??bukan tanak tolong langsung ke ape.. and in the morning, my beauty sleep was interrupted and blom ape2 dah kne pakse pegi and kene marah when i tell that dont want to go...salah kah???? they plan without even telling me, and marah pulak kalo kate tanak??? pastu bile kite diam je tak ckp ape2 pon kene marah... only 1 answer accepted which is "YES" or "OK".. you know what kind of scolding i faced the moment i open up my eyes for a new day??? die sampai nak nangis ckp kite nih tak nak tolong laa ape laa menyakitkan ati laa..kalo dah ckp mcm tuh, what do you feel??ade rase nak tolong lagi?? ade??
satu lagi, yang guest yang sorang nih ...ade 2 kete, ade car seat, and he knew that the significant other nk pegi buat keje sampai isnin, and isnin die kne keje, tak boleh bawak 2 kete?? apakah?? i dont ask him to return the car yang die nak pakai tu pada hari tersebut...tp kalo die nk menyusahkan diri sendiri, sile laa, tapi jgn salahkan orang lain, ok?
lps tu org yg menolong nih plak, kalo nak tolong ...gi je laa tolong..duk sane ke, tido sane ke...boleh aje kan?? tak ke?? tau plak nak balik..tanak duk sane... and then all the blames were on me...lepas tu org yg pakai kete tu balik sini pulangkan kete pade ptg tuh jugak and itu pon salah gue... why me??? kate kite tak sian laa ape laaa....kan dah bagi kunci...nak pakai, pakai laa... the car wasnt mine yet, remember????????kan dah emo tu....

having said all that...sape yang masih lagi nak jadik anak bongsu??? takde laa seindah mane jadi anak bongsu nih...

so, takpe laa pun..i prefer to take the workload of a teacher rather than the "supporting details" of the reasons mentioned.

Welcome to my life.....an introductory to myself

dimanakah permulaannye saye sebagai miss nugget?? pernah kah anda terfikir bahawa saya pernah menyandang gelaran miss nugget pada satu ketika dahulu???yer, kawan2... pada suatu ketika dahulu, saya pernah di kenali sebagai miss nugget...walaubagaimanapun, identiti saya berjaya di rahsiakan dengan kebijaksanaan saya bertukar menjadi objek lain selain nugget..

it was all started when i was in form 1, and the person responsible for giving me such a name was my geography teacher, Cikgu Sam or his full name Samsuri Mahat...everything started in the class when we learnt about "garisan kontur", (i remember it was about the lines that indicate keadaan mukebumi laa ape ntah..) and btw, during the we were instructed to draw bende alah tu laa kan in the previous class as a homework, and as a good student... gue pun buat laa dgn taat setia nya... however the shape of the contour line tht i had drawn somehow a lil bit resemblance to the A&W punye logo laa, tp tak same laa..tp bentuk lebih kurang...and i named it peta A&W which i erased it later with liquid paper(b4 he the class started laa, hajat utk berlawak kire kensel laaa)... tapi yer laa kan, i did not know(at that particular moment) that the teacher mmg agak suke mengenakan orang...and as soon as die soh kami kuar kan keje umah tuh, die cek sekor2 punye keje...and sampai kat buku gue, die tak puas ati nmpk ade liquid paper tuh... being curious, die tgk laa kat page sebelah.. i did not know yg bende tuh masih lg buleh di trace sesudah di liquid..hahahaha ( kejahilan di zaman itu)....lps die tau tajuk pete tu adlh peta A&W,abes di canang kan bukan sahaja di dalam kelas...tapi di semua kelas yg die ajar dan termasuklah di bilik guru...cess...ooppss, sebelum saye lupa, bukan aje berita tu dicanang2kan seantero mrsm tuh, tetapi juge dahi saye telah di conteng dengan marker itam bertulis "A&W"... yer kawan2... saye tak bohong....

after being humiliated like that, i got very2 angry laa kan...kunun nk rebel laa dlm klas die ..kunun nak flunk dlm klas geography tuh ..kunun nak banned geography dari dlm sejarah hidup laaa... therefore, in the next standardized test (ujian selaras), saye tidak study langsung utk subject itu ...dan saya tidak langsung membaca soalan dgn penuh perasaan seperti mau perikse SPM...sume saye tembak mengikut emosi sesuka hati saye....but surprisingly, my test result turned out to be the highest...salah 1 je.... apakah kekembangan yg telah dialami oleh diri dan bontot serta lobang idung saye....sungguh ku tak mampu menahan kembang ...ah..ah..ah... muahahhahaha... lepas kejadian magis tersebut, saye lalu telah berikrar utk insaf dan tak mau banned lagi subject tersebut..... dan lepas2 tuh, cikgu Sam pun terus laa mencanangkan lagi berita tersebut dan die ckp lebih kurang camnih laa dlm dialog die di setiap kelas tu "kalo saye tak conteng laa kat dahi die tu, die takkan dapat markah bagus punye..." ..apakah???


after sometime, mase form 3, he taught my class for BM..and being himself suke cerite balik kisah2 lame nih ...cerita peta A&W pun dah bertukar name jadik peta nugget....and since then, i was nicknamed as Miss N or miss nugget...dan cerita tersebut berlarutan laaa sampai ke mase saye form 5, die ingat lagi insiden tuh, dan masih lg panggil miss nugget...apakah??? tp takpe laa, bukan die citer psl bende2 tak baik pun, bende baik pun die ade citer...kire balance laa... and 1 more thing i remember about this teacher was ...everytime he was teaching, tak sah kalo die tak allocate masa utk mengutuk gue or mengena kan gue...but the ironic was kalo die tak buat camtu, tak best plak klas...kire ok laa kan.... i hope he's still remember me...i heard that he has been transferred to Kolej Mara Kulim...naik pangkat...good for him...

jadik nye kawan2...begitu laa kisah kejadian asal usul miss nugget ...hik hik hik...selamat berkenalan yer!!!

PS: jgn laa lupe tugasan anda..hik hik hik...