it's tojie's wedding....

today, i went to tojie's ( farah shahana's) wedding in Klang...thank you for the invite... It was such a wonderful day because i could jumpak2 kembali dgn kwn2 mase asasi... especially pero, am dan jugak ady...other than that, ade jugak farraliza, sorang budak yang saye ske tgk muke die dulu.. yg juge merupakan sorang student kepade kakak saye... tapi kawan2...dont get me wrong..saye bukan lesssssss yer...walaupun suria (bukan name sebenar) adlh teman dua ranjang gue... so, without anymore sok sek- sok sek, i'll just give you the pictures laa kan, let them speak for themselves...


ini adalah saye dan pero, yang menjadik mem besar dlm kete Persona milik Am dan Hisyam Francis ....




masih lagi mem-mem besar, di ambil oleh Puan Am a.k.a Mrs Francis

saye tiade dlm gambar kerana mengambil gambar...
from left: Pero, Puan Am, Puan Ady wannabe (insyallah February next year)



ini adlh budak2 asasi yang ade tadik.....
the back benchers (bench kerr??) from left: Am (Ameerah Amrudin), Miss Nugget, Ady (Adnyn Muhanifa), Farraliza, Pero (Aisyah Fairuz)



with the king and queen of the day : Hafizi and Tojie (you both look good together.. :D so sweet)

oh yer kawan2, pada pagi tersebut...lepas bangun pagi saye pun talipon pero tapi die tak angkat pasal talipon kat atas, die takut nak naik atas umh am sensorang....so saye pon tipon am...

kemudian, saye mandi2 siap2...tapi tak mekap lagi...terus gi umh am...best borak2...pastu tunggu pero siap mandi dan baru mekap2....lalu lps mekap kami pon pegi ke umh pengantin menaiki kete am..pegi 1 kete je...tak jem...

kat sane kami jumpe dgn ady dan ramai lagik...owh ...ade lagi gambar...jap eh saye letak lagi... hihihihi.....





ady and fiance




from left: pero, ady, miss nugget,( hopefully am little one :D) and mommy to-be Am



OK. tu je gambar yang ade ....that's all folk!!

PS: nnti graduation pic and maybe manj's wedding plak coming soon.....

gambarajah tikus makmal yang kiut....hahahaha

well...setelah saye berjaye kembali ke shah alam dan mendapat kelajuan internet bagai halilintar...lalu saye pun terus teringat utk mengupload gambarajah yang telah saye janji kan aritu....



for more pictures...sile laa gi berjalan2 di friendster saye ...ade kat photo album...
all rise sumer....tengkiuk!!

tikus makmal....

for a few days, i have been a very loyal and good lab rat to my sister..hahaha....
i am very happy to be given a make over .... hahaha..ske2... saye suke make up2...ske sangattt....

sile lihat gambarajah yang di berikan...walaupun gambar agak hayam sikit....al maklum laaa tangan menggigil sket amik gambar...dah lame tak kne bedung.... (tapi it gives the impact macam di alam mimpi sket kann...hahaha...nk sedap kan hati sendiri )hahahahah ..ai loike....


aihhh...terkuciwa laa beta...pasal takleh nk upload..connection di sini adlh sgt poor utk maxis broadband....takpe laa..nanti kan kemunculan nye sebaik sahaje saye mendapat connection sepantas halilintar nanti yer!!! jangan lupe yer kawan2....

ps: to rocher yang nak kawen 1 jun nih...slamat pengantin baru...tak dpt nk g psl saye konvo laa pada hari sebelum nye....

what a great feeling....

wahh....what a feeling ekk?? to be appreciated by your own student.... i received 1 wish, from my former student during the practicum...her name is nur syahirah...a petite, cute, yet a very hardworking student. she was in 2 Amal last year and i believe that she stays in Amal this year (that is the best class of the whole bunch). i thought i wasnt a teacher yet, but after received the wish on Friday evening from only 1 student, it was enough to convince myself that i am still a teacher, at least to her..

after receiving sms from my student, saye pon sms kat cikgu2 saye yg saye ade nombor diorang...hopefully they still remember me and happy to receive the sms.

so...i've been neglecting this blog for a few days because i was in terengganu for 2 days (1 night only). my sister wanted to borrow my car and therefore she invited me to accompany her to kertih (rantau petronas to be exact..). friday morning we began the journey from kl. it took us almost 4 hours driving( non-stop)..but i was happy because she's done the driving, and i was just the co-driver. driving an AMT savvy, it used only half tank of the petrol(full tank =rm 50 -rm 53). however, the tolls we had to pay (actually, she had to pay..) were RM 5+ RM3 +RM 21 = RM 29 total. we were staying in a resort in kijal, and the next morning, she had a job to be done in e-learning center @petronas office which located in rantau petronas. i had to wake up early to follow her to the centre.(that is like a challenge to me because at home, i usually wake up at 12 or 1230...hahahaha...) she gave me to choose whether to stay in the hotel or follow her...and i choose to follow...hahaha biase laa, i mmg suke menyibuk sket kannn....

I was really happy to be away from home for at least 1 week..(2 days in tganu..)the rest of the days until the end of the week, i'll be staying at her apartment somewhere in kl. like today, she went out as early as 4 a.m. and she left me at home and i slept until 12 as usual...and after i took my bath, i went down to find something to eat at the mini market downstairs and after that ... i have done a movie marathon.....syiok nye saye..... hepii... but now i'm out of dvd to watch...takpe laa tgk balik cite yg dh tgk sampai muntah....

ape2 pun yg penting kite hepi kannn????

happy DG 41's day...

happy teacher's day everybody(in advance)... most of my TESL friends my wish goes to you..best laa korang sumer, udah jadik career women dong!!<<{tak berniat utk mendiskriminasi kaum adam...} tambah2 si Suria (bukan nama sebenar), kemain lagik ko yer....joli raye hindi lagi...pegi meeting bukan main jauh..sampai Putrajaya lagik tuh .. pasal SUKMA lagik tuh.. kelllaasssss nyah ...bangge mak, nyah...jgn memain tau, nnti suria (bukan name sebenar) tu duk kat Shangri-La lagik...tu yang paling kelassss tu nyahhhh..... nnti kalo anda iaitu suria ( bukan nama sebenar) terbace post mak nih nyah....jangan lupe kat mak, nyahhh.. yer laa dah duk di atas bukit, di tengah2 putrajaya......menikmati pemandangan indah seantero putrajaya tuh...igt2 ler kat mak yer nyahh... itu baru ko jadik cikgu skolah tuh nyah..walau pun blom komprem lagi, tp mmg kelass nyah....itu blom lagi kalo ko gi jadik lecturer kat UMT (bukan nama universiti sebenar) tuh lagi nyahhhhh....takpe laa, udah2 laa cite pasal si Suria (bukan nama sebenar ) tuh....

saye sungguh berase sedih sekali kerana saya tidak menyambut hari DG 41 ni...ini bermakne, saye tidak akan dapat hadiah yang banyak bertimbun seperti sewaktu saye abes practicum dulu...sedih... walau ape pun saye pasrah atas ketentuan ini...mungkin juge belum rezeki utk dpt hadiah yg banyak dan bertimbun2....tunggu laaa kalo saye kawen ..misti ade banyak kann>??? (banyak ker...???ade ke org nak bagi???)

yer kawan2...saye skang nih sedang melawan penyakit..dan saye tak sihat...sebenarnye saye demam....baru je demam tuh datang..aritu ok je...smlm br start..tu sbb saye tak tulis blog dah lame..saye sungguh letih...blood pressure saye pon turun 86/60 dan doktor yg merawat saye kate itu adalah kritikal.....doa kan saye cpt sembuh yer kawan2...ok lah...saye nk tido jap lagi...daaaaaaa

i miss my friendss...

to tell the truth i really miss my friends... i mean all my friends... from muadzam, asasi and also my tesl friends...especially yesterday after the thing in putrajaya...i realized that i need a friend to talk to..so i called some of them whom are free at that moment..the victims were manja , jeepers creepers, and suzen.. since suzen was free that time and about to go out looking for some stuff with warine, i joined them. at least, being around my friends would make me put all the things that were bothering me aside..for a while, i wasnt thinking about it..
later that evening, i called lyd and suria...and then i went to sleep because that is one of the way for me to let go all of my emotional distress. however, lately it didnt work for me anymore. after i woke up, the discontentment within myself was still there. Sometimes, i feel like i'm no good at all.
have you ever feeling so down that you hated yourself too much like hell?? that was what i felt yesterday.. i felt that i'm no good and i dont have any goal in my life. i felt useless. what's worst was when i dont know what whas the purpose i'm even here?? sometimes i just dont know who am i. I dont even know how to describe myself. I was once being asked by my sister with just a simple question..very simple that it hurts because i just dont know how to answer, where to start, and what should i include in the answer to make it perfectly right...she's given me 1 year for me to find out the answer. The time is up already and i still dont have the answer. not that she comes back for an answer but, i'm just not satisfied with myself that i still do not have the answer. The simple question i'm talking about is "Who are you?", but the answer should not relate you to anybody such as "i'm someone's daughter, someone's gf, someone's wife etc...". It is just you as a person...
right now, i'm not settled yet ... i am still nobody, still fully dependent on my parents and sometime i just feel like crap. i just hope that i will find out who myself really are, and hopefully everything will just fall into its place.. i could just pray and cross my fingers, hoping for the very best.....
PS: please pray for me .. i really miss you guys...

Lariii...warden datang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

larii..incik warden dah nak tag orggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
1) i am a very stubborn person
2) my self esteem is fluctuating most of the time...one minute i have all the confidence the next minute it drops drastically
3) i can be very childish n very mature at times.(same with the warden..hehe..)
4) i am not creative at all...
5) my favourite chocolate is Beryl's Almond
6) at times i hate my life
7) i am a "slow-talker"... since forever.. sometimes it's hard to complete a story..

7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1) high expectation
2) being left alone in the middle of nowhere..n tade public transport kat situ langsung
3) my mother's high pitch
4) if i am surrounded by bad people around me..
5) if i was in the condition of the math prodigy
6) if i lose the ability to think rationally
7) if i wont have the chance to repent myself

7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT:
1) *1000 tahun*
2) *kenangan terindah*
3) *wont go home without u*
4) *tattoo*
5) *tak bisakah*
6) **
7) ** ( sorry..not into music)

7 “FIRST TIME” THINGS I EVER DID:
1) fly dari hostel...dgn yati n ina kott... 1998
2) ponteng puase dgn mendapat restu dari ayah ..1996(dan tak ganti2...mase tu blom wajib ganti lagi)
3) had a bf (bf ker???cam bodoh aje...terase buduh!!!), July 1st,2000
4) pegi sambut new year yg mcm buduh (nyesal pegi), 2004
5) naik flight.. September 1997
6) fix the door knob.. 2007
7) ade talipon.. 2000

7 PEOPLE I TAG:
1) s
2) a
3) p
4) e
5) 2
6) l
7) a

kalau anda tertekan angkat tangan....( saye!! saye!!)

i have no time to update the blog for the past few days because i was emotionally unstable (yesterday was such a drama in my life..but seriously, I am so stressed out rite now). However, I prefer not to write about that on the blog (hopefully) . Now, I would like to talk about forthcoming KPM interview on March 8th,2008.

After I missed the first interview (after a short period of consideration and also overslept), i received the second one, I see it as a second chance. And this time i decided to go for it. Here are some of the reasons why I reconsider the interview....

i) I want to be financially independent so that I have more autonomy to my own life, and have my own say on everything that I do... i can do whatever i wanted to do without having to ask from anybody for financial support.. now, at this point of my life, i depend 98% on my parents, 2% on my bf, and some extra emergency percent on my sister's account.. (mekafihhh maklam rayap yang gorjes!!).. and as the majority of the financial support are from my parents, whatever I do, I MUST INFORM them... and now that i stay at home for the semester break, i am short of money.. and i feel really really sad :( :(

ii) I wish I could stay away from home. For a few days, yes of course...but everyday?? oh no...i believe that you know what i mean.. at the very beginning u arrived, u are missed by everybody in the house..but after a while, not anymore. in my situation, when your siblings came home with their children, bibik and what not ..you are no more a special person in the house, terus turun kasta.. kene suruh buat itu laaa, ini laaa, masak laa.... i mean, they are my siblings, and that means this house is their house as well..pegi laa buat sume tu sendiri kan???buat ape plak gwe nak buat sume tuh utk depa??? i dont mind kalo buat same2 ke ape ke... tapi balik2 yang kene suruh tuh gwe..org2 lain tuh takde kne suruh pon..what makes me so irritated, when they are coming back, i dont even have my own room... even the bibiks have their room... lepas tu, ape2hal yg salah sume kite aje....orang2 yg lain tuh sume elok aje... ye laaa...org tuh sume dah kawen..dah ade anak... jarang balik umah, so sume tuh indah belake laa kan....kite ni dah duk umh...jadik laa tuan rumah diorang tetamu laa ape lagi ntah.... pendek kate dok umh ni bosan.. bosan...dan BOSAN..

iii) the third reason is somehow related to the previous reasons. now that i am at home, i am rarely go out to enjoy myself...let alone going out for date, nak gi kuar gi giant ke...nak kuar gi bank ke... pun ade org ikut...so, harapan utk gi tabung aji utk kuarkan savings adalah terbantut sama skali... dah tuh, sbb ade orang ikut, takkan laa kite nk ajak die pegi tgk wayang plak kan??maksudnye kne kuar secara bertujuan yang suci laa kan?? nak beli ape2 pun, kne bertujuan..no crap at all..yer tak kawan2?? apekah perasaan anda?? indah?? sape nak jadik anak bongsu???sape?????

iv) this one is also related to the previous ones... remember that i wrote about kne suruh2 in the second reason tuh??? i dont mind at all if they wanted to help the "guests" who come to our house, be my guest.. want to borrow the car??? pakai laa..it's not even mine yet( see?? i am not financially dependent at all..).. if you want to make any plan that includes me, inform me first... ask for my willingness BEFORE you plan... not AFTER.. and what's annoying me was, i was not being given appropriate choices..(a) It's either i go with them ( it is a 2-hour journey, and bukan highway) or (b) I'll wait for his significant other later in the afternoon to go there..either way i HAVE to go...and i DONT want to go... Because I am a stubborn person (i mean really stubborn).. I am so annoyed when people instructed me to do this and that... so, berbalik kepade cerita tadi, my tagline in helping people "kalo kite nak tolong orang,nak menyusahkan diri sendiri aje, fine..tpjgn sebab nak tolong org, kite menyusahkan orang lain jugak (yang belum tentu willing utk menyusahkan diri die utk org yang kite nak tlg)"... bukan tanak tolong, i did help sket2 ape.. die nak pinjam kete, amik laa...the previous night, i slept with the sons, and both puked on the bed sheet at two different occurrences,late night before tido and early morning, buatkan susu, pastu muntah atas baju & the bed sheet..i was not complaining at all about that..tuh pun kire tolong jugak kan..??bukan tanak tolong langsung ke ape.. and in the morning, my beauty sleep was interrupted and blom ape2 dah kne pakse pegi and kene marah when i tell that dont want to go...salah kah???? they plan without even telling me, and marah pulak kalo kate tanak??? pastu bile kite diam je tak ckp ape2 pon kene marah... only 1 answer accepted which is "YES" or "OK".. you know what kind of scolding i faced the moment i open up my eyes for a new day??? die sampai nak nangis ckp kite nih tak nak tolong laa ape laa menyakitkan ati laa..kalo dah ckp mcm tuh, what do you feel??ade rase nak tolong lagi?? ade??
satu lagi, yang guest yang sorang nih ...ade 2 kete, ade car seat, and he knew that the significant other nk pegi buat keje sampai isnin, and isnin die kne keje, tak boleh bawak 2 kete?? apakah?? i dont ask him to return the car yang die nak pakai tu pada hari tersebut...tp kalo die nk menyusahkan diri sendiri, sile laa, tapi jgn salahkan orang lain, ok?
lps tu org yg menolong nih plak, kalo nak tolong ...gi je laa tolong..duk sane ke, tido sane ke...boleh aje kan?? tak ke?? tau plak nak balik..tanak duk sane... and then all the blames were on me...lepas tu org yg pakai kete tu balik sini pulangkan kete pade ptg tuh jugak and itu pon salah gue... why me??? kate kite tak sian laa ape laaa....kan dah bagi kunci...nak pakai, pakai laa... the car wasnt mine yet, remember????????kan dah emo tu....

having said all that...sape yang masih lagi nak jadik anak bongsu??? takde laa seindah mane jadi anak bongsu nih...

so, takpe laa pun..i prefer to take the workload of a teacher rather than the "supporting details" of the reasons mentioned.

Welcome to my life.....an introductory to myself

dimanakah permulaannye saye sebagai miss nugget?? pernah kah anda terfikir bahawa saya pernah menyandang gelaran miss nugget pada satu ketika dahulu???yer, kawan2... pada suatu ketika dahulu, saya pernah di kenali sebagai miss nugget...walaubagaimanapun, identiti saya berjaya di rahsiakan dengan kebijaksanaan saya bertukar menjadi objek lain selain nugget..

it was all started when i was in form 1, and the person responsible for giving me such a name was my geography teacher, Cikgu Sam or his full name Samsuri Mahat...everything started in the class when we learnt about "garisan kontur", (i remember it was about the lines that indicate keadaan mukebumi laa ape ntah..) and btw, during the we were instructed to draw bende alah tu laa kan in the previous class as a homework, and as a good student... gue pun buat laa dgn taat setia nya... however the shape of the contour line tht i had drawn somehow a lil bit resemblance to the A&W punye logo laa, tp tak same laa..tp bentuk lebih kurang...and i named it peta A&W which i erased it later with liquid paper(b4 he the class started laa, hajat utk berlawak kire kensel laaa)... tapi yer laa kan, i did not know(at that particular moment) that the teacher mmg agak suke mengenakan orang...and as soon as die soh kami kuar kan keje umah tuh, die cek sekor2 punye keje...and sampai kat buku gue, die tak puas ati nmpk ade liquid paper tuh... being curious, die tgk laa kat page sebelah.. i did not know yg bende tuh masih lg buleh di trace sesudah di liquid..hahahaha ( kejahilan di zaman itu)....lps die tau tajuk pete tu adlh peta A&W,abes di canang kan bukan sahaja di dalam kelas...tapi di semua kelas yg die ajar dan termasuklah di bilik guru...cess...ooppss, sebelum saye lupa, bukan aje berita tu dicanang2kan seantero mrsm tuh, tetapi juge dahi saye telah di conteng dengan marker itam bertulis "A&W"... yer kawan2... saye tak bohong....

after being humiliated like that, i got very2 angry laa kan...kunun nk rebel laa dlm klas die ..kunun nak flunk dlm klas geography tuh ..kunun nak banned geography dari dlm sejarah hidup laaa... therefore, in the next standardized test (ujian selaras), saye tidak study langsung utk subject itu ...dan saya tidak langsung membaca soalan dgn penuh perasaan seperti mau perikse SPM...sume saye tembak mengikut emosi sesuka hati saye....but surprisingly, my test result turned out to be the highest...salah 1 je.... apakah kekembangan yg telah dialami oleh diri dan bontot serta lobang idung saye....sungguh ku tak mampu menahan kembang ...ah..ah..ah... muahahhahaha... lepas kejadian magis tersebut, saye lalu telah berikrar utk insaf dan tak mau banned lagi subject tersebut..... dan lepas2 tuh, cikgu Sam pun terus laa mencanangkan lagi berita tersebut dan die ckp lebih kurang camnih laa dlm dialog die di setiap kelas tu "kalo saye tak conteng laa kat dahi die tu, die takkan dapat markah bagus punye..." ..apakah???


after sometime, mase form 3, he taught my class for BM..and being himself suke cerite balik kisah2 lame nih ...cerita peta A&W pun dah bertukar name jadik peta nugget....and since then, i was nicknamed as Miss N or miss nugget...dan cerita tersebut berlarutan laaa sampai ke mase saye form 5, die ingat lagi insiden tuh, dan masih lg panggil miss nugget...apakah??? tp takpe laa, bukan die citer psl bende2 tak baik pun, bende baik pun die ade citer...kire balance laa... and 1 more thing i remember about this teacher was ...everytime he was teaching, tak sah kalo die tak allocate masa utk mengutuk gue or mengena kan gue...but the ironic was kalo die tak buat camtu, tak best plak klas...kire ok laa kan.... i hope he's still remember me...i heard that he has been transferred to Kolej Mara Kulim...naik pangkat...good for him...

jadik nye kawan2...begitu laa kisah kejadian asal usul miss nugget ...hik hik hik...selamat berkenalan yer!!!

PS: jgn laa lupe tugasan anda..hik hik hik...